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This thing crossed my mind when I did my clinical practice in Mental Hospital. One day I sat on outpatient clinic and met some patients. Mostly they came just to checked up their mental health after some times ago got hospitalized there and asked for medicines stock. And whatever their previous mental health disorder (such as suicide trial, depression, social isolation, uncontrol anger, dellusion, or hallucination), the recent problem was low self esteem. And when I asked "What did make you feel that?" They answered like already agreed before, "People stayed away from me, because they knew that I'm insane". Before I went here, I had same perception with them who keep distance from people suffered from mental illness. Would they become normal again? Such a terrible thing to hear, how mean. But now I understand, the answer is "Yes". Yes, they will become normal again, just like other people. Soon as they recover, they will be back to their rutinity. As all of human being in this world, they also need to do thing to meet their needs. And 2 things of the needs that people suffered from mental illness really hard to fulfill are job and soulmate (husband/ wife). And again, my brain thought very hard. What kind of person who really has angel-heart to give job for them? What kind of person who wants to marry them? The problem is, we usually forget, all people almost all the time forget. That each of us isn't a body that have a soul. We're soul that have body. So, that's okay if your soul getting sick some times. Like our body, it could be healthy again if we treat it right. Simple thought, isn't it? But really hard to confess and memorize. Especially when we need to interact with people who suffered from mental illness. We think that we're perfect and they aren't, we're better. But wait. Did you really never got mentall illness? A study show that in 10 person in a room, 4 of them have mental illness, in any kind of form. Did you ever cry so sad and like anyone can help you? Did you ever want to remain silent and feel like no need anybody else? Did you ever feel like you fall down into deep hole and nobody give hand to climb, or even it yourself who make the hole just because you think world stay the same without you? Like our body health, our mental health also has healthy range. When you experienced thing I mentioned before, that indicates your mental health became sick. But you still right there right now. Everything is alright, right? So the difference is just they were hospitalized and we're not. The recovery also the same as long as the treatment is right. We as nurses should spread this words. That's okay if sometime someone get mental illness, just like body illness, that's the same normal. We should bring back our humanity to the surface. It's not a bad and shameful condition. People who suffered from mental illness should treated normally, support from us are really needed for them.

Bully happens everywhere, even in nurse situation. I also experienced it. In here, commonly happens from diploma degree nurses to bachelor degree nurses. I'm as bachelor degree nurse often accepted hurting words, like "How can't you do that easy thing? What is the use of your degree if you can't do that one? Didn't you learn it deeper in your class?" Everytime I've been bullied like that I always wanted to say, "Oh, come on! You work for many years so you become expert on it! I just earned my degree like yesterday!" But well, as "seniors always right" we seems don't have a power to complain. Keep smiling, keep giving your best!

I don't know how it's going in other hospital or other country. But in all hospital where I used to practice (I'm a student), I always see that the nurses spend more of their times in table, sitting, filling form, documentating, rather than go to patient's room. I mean this is happen in the ward, not in OR or intensive care or clinic. Can you tell me how it should be or this thing also happens in yours?

I prayed Hail Mary directly, just because I remembered that it last words said "pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death". I repeated it 3 times and ended up with Our Father. After that I prayed with my own words and left her although her hand said that she still needed a hand to hold on. Two days after that, she passed away. I thank God because I had sufficient time to prayed for/ with her. Some day in my clinical practice, I felt like I've done with all of my responsibility. I went around from one patient room to another room just for looked if there was anything I could do for them. And then I found an elderly, unconscious, pale, and connected to monitor, used simple mask for oxygen, and seemed so close with her death (if you have been accustomed with people near death and see the death you should notice it). Other patients in her room accompanied by their families, but she laid there alone. I approached her, and stood beside her bed. I held her cold hand, and she squeezed my hand too. I felt her need to somebody's present during her fight against pain. Then, I started to pray. I'm Catholic. I prayed Hail Mary directly, just because I remembered that it last words said "pray for us sinners, now and at the hour of our death". I repeated it 3 times and ended up with Our Father. After that I prayed with my own words and left her although her hand said that she still needed a hand to hold on. Two days after that, she passed away. I thank God because I had sufficient time to prayed for/ with her. Afterwards, every time I think I'm done with my job, I searched for lonely and unconscious patient then hold hand to pray together. Well, Nurses, maybe God choose you to deliver a soul to death in peace. If you think your job is done, spend a little of your time to pray for them who no one care of. Whatever your religion, even whatever you have a religion or not, because nurse isn't take responsibility for patient's physical health, but also spiritual health. Have a good day, Nurses!

Did you use this?" she asked me. I shocked my head and said yes because I remember that was the one that I used. Furthermore, she whirled that bottle and I saw a little text written by marker, I swear it wasn't attract the eyes to take an attention, and it read "Alcohol 70%". I want to share my bad experience. With this one, a lesson learned for me to be more careful and I hope it reminds you about little things that can be hazard for your patient. First, I'm really sorry for my patient. It happened about 2 years ago. I was on my clinical practice in a small hospital. As usual, our group divided into different team. I was with a friend, follow a nursing senior prepared the injection medicine for the patients. I remember, that was Ranitidine. I asked for made it into 10 cc with Aquadest. My senior nursing was busy enough so I just did it without asked anything to her. Those were 2 Aquadest bottle, I recognized that was Aquadest just from the bottle. When the medicine done prepared, we gave it to the senior. Then we injected it to the patient via intravenous line. And then..... "Aaaarrghh!!" the patient screamed out loud. She seems very painful when I gave that Ranitidine. My senior said, "Calm down, Mam, this medicine is little bit sharp but that's okay." Heard that, I continue and it was just 0,5 cc that in to the blood line. The patient cried out more and I didn't have the heart to continue. My senior asked me to stop, then took the spuit, walked back to nursing station, I followed behind. She sprayed that medicine in her hand, then smelled it. She saw me with indescribable face, and went to medicine preparation room, then took one of the Aquadest bottle that I used to diluted that Ranitidine. "Did you use this?" she asked me. I shocked my head and said yes because I remember that was the one that I used. Furthermore, she whirled that bottle and I saw a little text written by marker, I swear it wasn't attract the eyes to take an attention, and it read "Alcohol 70%". Oh my God! Suddenly I felt faint. What did I do to my patient? Fortunately, the medicine didn't yet all given. "Well I didn't know who is really responsible for this. But your mistake is you didn't careful, my mistake is I didn't lead you well, and the biggest mistake is owned by someone who used this bottle for alcohol and didn't write clearly and put it beside the real Aquadest." Lesson learned everybody, don't ever use a secondhand bottle or another container for another liquids or contents. If it really needed to use, make sure you write it down very clearly to make all staffs know about it. Nursing isn't an individual work, it's required team work. So every single thing should be communicate clearly. Fortunately, my patient was still healthy, and some hours after that accident she could be discharge and back at home. And so lucky me, I didn't get the punishment from the senior nursing there and instead it became a lesson for them. Be watch out, Nurses! Our hands hold many lives!