RB1215

Hello. I know there are millions of posts like this but looking for some advice. I am a new nurse who got her license in July. I began orienting on L&D and was just miserable. I cried about every day and would even throw up on some occasions. On my days off I would just sit and cry about how much I hated it and I believe started to go into depression. My manager ended up finding out and has since basically fired me. She is trying to have me find another job in the hospital. Going into nursing, maternal child was one of the few things I was interested in. I never enjoyed med surg, hate critical situations. I had a meeting with HR where they basically gave me an ultimatum. I either have to go back to L&D and stay there or they will have disciplinary actions, go to a med surg floor and stay there for 2 years or disciplinary actions, or leave, which will consequently probably burn a bridge. I have an offer for a doctor's office opening up, but seeing as the hospital is the major healthcare provider in my town, I don't want to burn bridges. Not sure if it's worth my mental and physical health to go back and be miserable though. I will soon be interviewing for a CCU job at the current hospital, but not sure if critical care is really for me. I am thankful for any advice! Thank you.

So I have been reading everyone else's posts about how new grads feel coming into nursing and decided to write my own. I am a new grad that is currently working on a labor and delivery unit. I am still in orientation and have another month in orientation, but I currently feel very anxious and uneasy about my job. (I just try to imagine how I will feel once I'm on my own.) I cry almost every day and even more so on my days off. I can't enjoy my days off because I am dreading and counting down the days until I have to go back. I have told my preceptor and supervisor this and they both told me that is completely normal. I love my coworkers and the environment isn't toxic but I just don't know how much longer I will be able to sustain this type of stressful lifestyle. I am struggling to know whether this stress is a normal thing and will go away or if this specialty isn't for me and I need to switch departments. I am also worried that switching departments may look bad on my résumé and no one will want to hire me. I currently feel stuck in my situation and I'm not sure how to fix it. Does anyone have any advice for me?