Tyndall

Yes, you are right, I really do need to. I'm just scared & embarrassed to admit I feel this way. Plus, I wonder if there would be any implications for me telling someone what's going on? I think mental health has come a long way, but there is still a lot of stigma. But, I guess if I'm ever going to be successful in any area of life, I need to deal with it, right? Yes, I did work in Home Health as a RN, but I was bored in my RN role. I think I just need to get to the bottom of the anxiety first, then figure out the rest later. I appreciate your advice.

I became a LPN several years back. When I got out of school, I went into Home Health because that was the only place taking new grads at the time. I ended up working shifts in the homes with some very sick people & enjoyed it a lot. I wasn't scared to do anything! I decided to go back to nursing school to get my RN. Halfway through my program my Mom died. Towards the end of school I got pregnant. Despite all of it, I finished on time & with honors. I had my child, then took a RN job when she was 3 months old. I felt depressed, scared, & incompetent, so I quit. I have had 5 jobs in the last 2 years. It's not good. I get nervous, scared im going to hurt someone, let others bully me, I've heard other nurses laugh or complain about how slow or nervous I am... and I always end up leaving... How did I become so scared of everything?Maybe this isn't my calling anymore...