AlyaMF

Love animals.

So I have read many of you guys comments and it did motivate me to look into being a scrub tech, as I'm in the process of researching more about it, so I will let you guys know. (Also) UPDATE: You guys had also inspired me to try to come out of my comfort zone and I did volunteer at a children's home as a one time thing because I didn't know how I would take the commitment. I read stories to the children but it was killing me inside the whole time that day, feeling all those eyes of the children on me. I couldn't finish the story because I couldn't focus on the words since the whole time in my head I kept seeing eyes and I felt as if I was having an anxiety attack. So I can't wait for my appointment with the psychiatrist because I now know that I have a serious problem, all for venturing out of my comfort zone.

I don't feel good about the way I think or my actions and that is why I'm going to see a psychiatrist because maybe I have a personality disorder and I don't even know it. And the worst thing is I have a little sister and she's showing the same symptoms and dispositions I always try to hide from people. So I feel it's better to stop the problem in it's tracks now before it becomes too great. I know my kindness can be the fakest thing ever and I don't feel bad about pretending to like people. And I don't know if it's a thing on here or not to troll on Allnurses but I didn't make this thread to provide entertainment to you all.

I have nothing against newborns, babies, or children. So I may just try to get myself into that specialty.And isn't the families being there hard to deal with?

Are you being sarcastic? Lol, welcome to the club.

I will definitely give an update on my experiences.

Yeah, I could never talk to you guys in person or you all would all like to kill me. It's actually easier to express myself on the internet and that's why I like ranting.

Neither. I got accepted into a direct entry nursing program at University of Evansville.

I was home schooled all my life so I was never required to pledge to a flag.

That is so wrong on so many levels. Why should I have to pledge to an entity?

Believe it or not but I wouldn't fix my hair in front someone else's face because it's the staring that really gets me every time. So I would try to be discreet as possible or go to the bathroom where up to 10 ladies would be looking at me through the mirror! So I choose to bring a portable mirror where no one is able to look at me through the mirror. I curse at these people in my head but like I said I can be so fake when it comes to being nice.

Why do we have to pledge that? I don't even like... I'm not going to even say lol I will offend too many people.

Yeah it's real life but people really won't admit it to refrain from jeopardizing their license and job. But thre're are people like this, however, it's a very small minority. True fact: I haven't hugged a person in three years (at least not voluntarily).

Lol... I don't know how I feel about this comment.

Well.. I originally wanted to be a doctor because I'm very fascinated with inner organs. But I chose nursing because it seems like the quickest route for me. And I'm not punking anyone, I actually start nursing school August 24th. So I am excited. And I think you guys are taking it too personally. Yeah, I hate people but it's not like I enraged or want to kill people every time I see someone. I'm not a pyscho.

Okay, guys I hate people but I don't show people that I hate them. Which has actually been working out great with me. I am surrounded by people by working at Panera but I would never tell them to stop looking at me.

Someone is trolling us. Maybe it's a slow night over at "Student Doctor." Lol, believe what you want, but at least I know the truth. I see no specific reason to lie when I can be anonymous and just vent. And yes I would like to see as little as possible of family members that I can because I wouldn't know how to speak to them. And I see nothing wrong with that.

Exactly why I'm going to see a pyschiatrist to help me change my ways... I actually prefer the unconscious patients and night shift so I see no families.

Yeah, I know. But I just wanted to put it out there because I know many professions that's involves interacting with people on daily basis just wouldn't admit to something like this. My family knows how I am, but in general I keep it to myself.

The Sum Up: Why I hate people in general (reasons why): *When they stare at me for over 3 seconds for no apparent reason! Especially, when I'm trying to eat a subway sandwich or something and they just feel the need to watch me eat. Or when I'm trying to fix my hair in a portable mirror and they just feel the need to glance at me more then twice. Once should be enough because it's rude! *When they walk so slowww in front of me to the point where I just want to push them. Because I am a very impatient person to the point where the littlest things tick me off if it's not fast enough. *I hate when people tries to start a conversation with me! So I just smile and nod my head and hope that they get the jist that I don't want to talk. And it's not even people in general, it's actually because I'm a bad conversationalist! Why I dislike kids: * I don't necessarily hate them but I do force myself to be nice as possible to them. However, I really don't like interacting with children unless it's to hold a baby. *I don't want kids until my late 30s. Go figure. And I especially don't want to get married because every relationship I get into it only lasts for about 3 months because I love being a loner. If I'm going to work seeing people then I would like to come home and see no people. But I love animals (I have 4 dogs)! However, I just don't see myself working with animals in the future because I would love to keep my hands in tact. And no guys I am not trolling. This is really an everything for me and it's the reasons why it is so hard for me to commit to nursing. And I actually have an appointment set up with a therapist July 18 before I go off to nursing school and it's to find out why I really act this way. So I just wanted to make this thread because after scrolling Allnurses for the last two days I find that threads like these are not common but their are people out there who is just like me and wants to go into nursing. I want to be a nurse because I find that I really like helping people and kids at their weakest points but other than that I hate people.