AlyaMF

Love animals.

So I have read many of you guys comments and it did motivate me to look into being a scrub tech, as I'm in the process of researching more about it, so I will let you guys know. (Also) UPDATE: You guys had also inspired me to try to come out of my comfort zone and I did volunteer at a children's home as a one time thing because I didn't know how I would take the commitment. I read stories to the children but it was killing me inside the whole time that day, feeling all those eyes of the children on me. I couldn't finish the story because I couldn't focus on the words since the whole time in my head I kept seeing eyes and I felt as if I was having an anxiety attack. So I can't wait for my appointment with the psychiatrist because I now know that I have a serious problem, all for venturing out of my comfort zone.

I don't feel good about the way I think or my actions and that is why I'm going to see a psychiatrist because maybe I have a personality disorder and I don't even know it. And the worst thing is I have a little sister and she's showing the same symptoms and dispositions I always try to hide from people. So I feel it's better to stop the problem in it's tracks now before it becomes too great. I know my kindness can be the fakest thing ever and I don't feel bad about pretending to like people. And I don't know if it's a thing on here or not to troll on Allnurses but I didn't make this thread to provide entertainment to you all.

I have nothing against newborns, babies, or children. So I may just try to get myself into that specialty.And isn't the families being there hard to deal with?

Are you being sarcastic? Lol, welcome to the club.

I will definitely give an update on my experiences.

Yeah, I could never talk to you guys in person or you all would all like to kill me. It's actually easier to express myself on the internet and that's why I like ranting.

Neither. I got accepted into a direct entry nursing program at University of Evansville.

I was home schooled all my life so I was never required to pledge to a flag.

That is so wrong on so many levels. Why should I have to pledge to an entity?

Believe it or not but I wouldn't fix my hair in front someone else's face because it's the staring that really gets me every time. So I would try to be discreet as possible or go to the bathroom where up to 10 ladies would be looking at me through the mirror! So I choose to bring a portable mirror where no one is able to look at me through the mirror. I curse at these people in my head but like I said I can be so fake when it comes to being nice.

Why do we have to pledge that? I don't even like... I'm not going to even say lol I will offend too many people.

Yeah it's real life but people really won't admit it to refrain from jeopardizing their license and job. But thre're are people like this, however, it's a very small minority. True fact: I haven't hugged a person in three years (at least not voluntarily).

Lol... I don't know how I feel about this comment.

Well.. I originally wanted to be a doctor because I'm very fascinated with inner organs. But I chose nursing because it seems like the quickest route for me. And I'm not punking anyone, I actually start nursing school August 24th. So I am excited. And I think you guys are taking it too personally. Yeah, I hate people but it's not like I enraged or want to kill people every time I see someone. I'm not a pyscho.