Hi everyone, I have been reading posts on here for years, but today I'm going to make my first post since I'm really in need for some nursing student/nurse advice. Since I was about 12, my dream job was to work in labor and delivery (specifically as a CNM), and my dream school was the University of Arizona. I promised myself then that I would do anything necessary to get myself there, but lately it's just seeming more and more out of reach. I started attending U of A in 2012, which alone was difficult since my family was anything but supportive of it. My family didn't understand why I couldn't get my ADN/RN from a local community college and join the workforce immediately and go back and get my BSN/MSN later in life. Being a stubborn teenager, I refused, and I attended U of A on all loans, praying that it would all work out. Though I understood the competitiveness of the U of A BSN program, I still felt that if I didn't try I would forever wonder what could have been. U of A's program has about 200-400 applicants per cohort (around 200 for Spring, 400 for Fall), and a 3.4 GPA (pre-req and cumulative) is a must to be competitive. Pre-requisite GPAs are weighed the most heavily in the admissions process, being 40% of the score, cumulative GPA follows with 30%, overall making GPA determine 70% of your admissions score. The remaining 30% was split between your personal statement: 10% (which they are now phasing out), and your interview: 20% (which you only complete if you are one of the top 100 applicants). As a high schooler, I was skeptical I would be able to reach above a 3.4 GPA with classes like Chemistry and A&P being so heavily weighed, but I surprised myself and obtained a 3.7 pre-requisite GPA and a 3.8 cumulative GPA by the middle of my sophomore year. I applied to the program and ended up being in the top 100, I received an interview but was denied for admission since the average student admitted had a 3.9. When I inquired about my scores, it turns out that my grades were solely to blame since I received full points for my statement and interview. Though very disappointed, I decided to keep trying and have since applied an additional two times since then. It's been emotionally and mentally tiring to watch my friends and past classmates who I often received the same grades as be accepted to the program. I have to admit, it becomes so draining to want to be happy for them when they talk about their classes and how much they love being in nursing school, but in the back of your head you're thinking about how much you wish you could be there too. It becomes even more emotionally draining when they complain about their classmates skipping classes/clinicals, failing classes, or going to clinicals intoxicated, because all you can think about is how that person proved to be more qualified than you. I am now about to be a senior planning to graduate with a Bachelor's in Public Health in Spring 2016. As I am looking into ABSN/MSN to Midwifery and MEPN schools, I couldn't help but get my heart set on OHSU's ABSN/MS to Midwifery program. I'm also planning on applying to Seattle U and UIC, but I have found that almost every ABSN/MSN Midwifery or MEPN program is almost equally as competitive. I hoped that pursing my master's would give me that chance I have been so desperately wanting, but after taking the GRE, receiving average scores, and reading about how competitive the schools are, I can't help but wonder if my mom is right. Maybe I should "quit while I am ahead," maybe I really can't do this. And that's why I am turning to all of you for some advice. When is it time to let go of following your dream and pursue something practical (which in my case would be Public Health)? Are there any recent ABSN/MS or Midwifery graduates/CNMs willing to tell their story or offer some advice on what I should consider? Or does anyone have any suggestions for schools to consider? Sorry for the excessively long and emotional post! I just feel like I need advice from nurses since most of the advice I have gotten is either "you can do anything as long as you put your mind to it!" or "why would you keep trying?"