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Wow. Thank you all for your responses. They are tremendously helpful. I am so glad I posted.

Omg this is one issue I just promised myself I need to get over. I have been trying to get through my shifts I am on orientation and it is already difficult. Then on top of that there's this awful woman who talks down on patients staff and I even caught her talking about me. I was already flustered and feeling down because I am trying to get this together and it got me even more depressed. I need to toughen up and ignore this crap. It's just hard on top of everything else.

Thanks for your reply. My first preceptor said it's going to take me awhile. She said the same things. The ratio can be up to 1:7. The only reason I liked psych was because of the children. I think the cardiac is very interesting. I really don't mind constantly doing work, the time goes by fast. But some of us stay 2 hours extra because it was so busy. Someone told me the census is down in the summer so stick it out. I'm going to see how it goes when I go in this week. Hopefully I can suck it up and ignore negativity.

Thanks for your reply. I really wasn't sure what I liked. I figured let me get in whatever I can and learn and see what I may like. I really liked the fact I can learn so much on this floor. But I feel that the rapid responses are extremely stressful and throw me off. And an emergency, someone who is tachycardic at 150 and needs your full attention and everything involved in that.....is giving me a heart attack! They throw me off. There has been 2 nurses who quit since I've been there. It's a ton to deal with.

Hello. Now I am a happy person. I am a people person and love caring for others and I never let anyone get to me. Being in psych for over 3 years has helped me overcome the most difficult of people. Before psych I worked in home care for 2 years. I thought I landed my dream job. So much to learn. Now I am about to come off orientation on a tele floor soon. The first month was difficult, I cried and just thought I couldn't do this but still learned so much. Then I went on to night shift and my new preceptor helped me with a fast routine and taught me so much. But now I can tell he just don't want to deal with me. He has been condescending even on a personal level and he is extremely ocd. In the beginning his ocd was helpful to learn routine n how to do things right. I am relearning everything. It may be harder for me than a new nurse because I haven't been dealing with medical in forever. One day I had someone else and I had no anxiety and had a great night. She is such a outgoing nice person. I felt free to talk to her. and then after her I had HIM. It was the worst night ever. I wanted to cry n quit. Then I heard someone else talking negatively about me. Then I had an emergency. The night got worse n worse. I cried in my car, at home and the next day I was a zombie from depression n confusion. I don't know if this is for me. Is it the floor? Am I going to be able to handle this? Am I just dumb and forgetful? Should I tell my supervisor I can't handle? Should I try for an ortho floor ? Or some other floor without such fragile patients??? I have 2 children and bills and a school loan to pay but am not happy. I feel incompetent and dumb.