January0002

Thank you for all your advice it really does help!

The First time I took the Nclex I only made it to 75 questions. I walked out knowing in the back of my mind that I didn't pass. The second time I studied really hard and I tried to keep a positive attitude. I had been in an ICU internship and since I hadn't passed they at least let me continue in the Critical Care Class. I thought that with that I would pass the second time. I made it to 218 I think, that was the last number I had looked up at before it stopped me. I really hit rock bottom then. Its hard you know when everyone you talk to asks you about the test and how's it going? I randomly took the third one without hardly studying at all, already anticipating my failure. So now I have a tutor she's a NP who taught nursing at another school. She been very helpful! I just know that I need to overcome my anxiety about the test. I know that calling myself a failure isn't gonna do me any good. I just hate that I feel like I need to strive for perfection, and when I fall short I feel worthless. Like you said I made it through nursing school, I mean thats an achievment in itself, I made progress.

Thank you so much for your kind words it really means a lot.

I have been using ATI, and then I took the Hurst review once. I also use this app on my phone NCLEX RN. But I feel as if Im not really getting the most of my studying.

I have failed my NCLEX 3 times now since graduating last May. I don't really know what to do. Its been hard, I had to leave my Nurse tech job on a floor that I loved due to being bullied by Nurses that did pass. My family really hasn't been all that supportive either. Everyone in my family is a nurse and my mom who actually was my OB instructor doesn't understand why I shouldn't be able to pass. All my nursing school friends have moved on and won't hardly message me back anymore. Im trying to find ways to stay positive but its beginning to really tear me down. I feel like I have lost most of my confidence. Even with studying I now double guess my answers. Im not sure what to do anymore. If anyone has any suggestions please let me know.