Grace6

Thank you for your response, "HouTx". I like what you said about different kind of thinkers. I never realized so much as I do now that I definitely do not "think quick". It took me being in this ICU setting to figure that out. I am more of a "take my time" kind of person. I work more efficiently with less stress, and with a routine. I am just so in the dark right now and this is not a good time for me. . I want my life to be bright and meaningful, and I know I will be a good nurse somewhere. Like I've said before, I know God has a plan. I am trying to not be so stressed out with this. . But it's hard not to be, because every time I step into that unit I become so stressed all over again. I'm going to try really hard to make it to that 6 month mark until I can transfer. Thank you again!

Hello everyone! Okay so to start off, I've been a hospital Med Surg LVN for almost 3 years. I recently just graduated RN school in December 2014 and started my new RN job at a different hospital in February 2015 - in the ICU. I originally only wanted an ICU position to further my experience and become more comfortable with "advance" nursing skills. I figured that if I learned from a high impact critical nursing setting, that I could do what I truly love later with more ease at being able to handle situations. With that being said... It is now mid-April (only 2 and a half months on the job), I'm off orientation, and I cannot stop thinking "What Have I Gotten Myself Into..." Not only do I not like ICU AT ALL, but I can't transfer to another unit in the hospital until August. And even when I am able to transfer, I don't know what position I am truly interested in or what would best suite me. Also, I'm so embarrassed to transfer so soon, because I feel like I have wasted my directors time, my preceptors time, and my own time with not liking this specialty unit. I have become depressed, miserable, and have gotten to the point where not only do I dread going into work every night, but I also just have no desire to do anything once I'm off. And then there's the thought that whichever unit or new job I apply for will ask me why I quit ICU so soon, and have doubts about hiring me. I just never thought I would dislike it so much!! And what erks me even more is that I had a NICU interview set up at this same hospital, but cancelled it when I got offered this ICU position because I thought I would get more experience. But then again what's the point of more experience if I'm miserable. . . I am a strong believer that everything happens for a reason and God has a plan far greater than mine! I just am so hopeful that things will work out, but I hope they do soon because this situation is really getting the best of me. I love nursing, but I feel like I am meant to be somewhere else with a calling. I don't know what yet, but I'm leaning more toward NICU, Nursery, Postpartum, or even Outpatient Day Surgery. I've even considered Hospice with a slower pace, just to not be so stressed! I want a position with more routine and less stress. How would those units look at me coming from ICU, though? That's such a drastic change going from ICU to women's services, for instance. I've also considered different departments like education, human resources, etc. I just have so many thoughts in my mind. . . I would appreciate any advice or tips SO much. Thank you for taking the time to read my post! Much Love and Blessings, -Grace