LucyJan

Hey everyone ! So I need a little help here. I'm a 17 years old student nurse. I never knew what to do with my life in high school. Then, nursing started interesting me. I know I had to do something in the medical field. I applied and got it. I'm at the second semester and it is hell. No social life and hours of studying : when you think you're finished, there's always more. But I deal with it. I got my first clinicals before Christmas and it went well, I was a little scared. Then after Christmas, I really started wondering if that's really what I want to do for the rest of my life. But I didn't quit. I got other clinicals this week. It all went well until my instructor told me I should quit because she thinks I'm not where I belong, that I'm really immature (because I forgot my watch once and I chewed gum) and she went on and on, I didn't really listen because I was focusing on not crying. Couldn't keep it in , went to the bathroom and let it all out then went back and carried on with my day. It made me really insecure and I didn't really care about my patient after that (i'm a horrible person I know) and saw all the negatives points in nursing instead of the great ones. Since then, I've been questioning myself hardcore. I went and see what other job I could be interested in but there wasn't. There was tec vet but the money isn't great. I only did clinicals with elder people which I do find cute but I'm afraid if i'm dropping out, I'll miss great opportunities like ped and L&D. I'm afraid to regret. I'm afraid of not finding anything else that I'll like. I'm wondering if I should stick with it and decide afterwards. I'm afraid of being and nurse and not liking it and burn out. I think I'm just afraid of doing what I'll do for my entire life. What should I do?