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I think it's just hospital nursing I don't like. I was pretty unspecific in my last post, getting it all off my chest, I think... I love the teaching aspect, including at the hospital. I like administering medication, don't even mind IV per se, just don't like the starting and the worry about infiltration, etc. I like doing assessments and I love figuring out care plans and tailoring care to a patient based on specific needs. I also like helping people in general. An office nursing job appeals to me because I feel like you are more in a position to help people. You get to know the patients and teaching is a little more effective in an office setting. I am a caregiver at heart, but the hospital is a little much for me. I can't just leave it there, I go home and worry about what I might've done wrong, etc. I know that will be a concern anywhere, because that is just how I am, but with the higher level of patient need in a hospital, I think it makes it more stressful. I think my post came out pretty whiny and negative because I feel so overwhelmed. I really don't like nights and weekends though, and I think the weird scheduling there adds to my stress.

Hi. I think I need help, or maybe a place to vent. I graduated nursing school in December and started my first nursing job in April at a rural hospital. I don't like it. Somewhere between don't like and hate is how I feel. I always thought I would like hospital nursing, but I am discovering I really really don't. (And to the many wonderful hospital nurses out there, please don't take offense! It is just not for me!) I hate working nights, I hate working weekends, but mostly, I just don't like hospital work. I don't like dealing with IV's, round the clock medication schedules, etc. I initially thought I was going through an adjustment phase, but I'm now reasonably certain that it's not adjustment, I just don't like it. Plus, I started in ER for six weeks, but moved because I thought medical would be better for me. It was. Then they decided to put me in ICU. I had one month in ICU as an orientee and then was a primary this past Friday night. I just don't think I should be a primary yet anyway, but on my second night after orientation? That is another problem with the hospital, at least in my case... You get all these great promises of orientation and nurse to patient ratios, but in a bind, they don't hesitate to stick it to you. I feel so overwhelmed, but I am trying very hard to hold on for a year, because I know the experience will be important. My goal is an office job. Any help/suggestions to help me make it to a year? Seems so far off right now. Any new nurses who can commiserate? Thanks!