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Hi guys, I just wanted to update everyone that had the courtesy to comment on my post a little while back. I obviously didn't go back to my job, not that they would have offered me my the position back after my suspension and my dity tox sceen. Anyways,i wanted to let you guys know what was going on. So far its been over a month since my positive drug test and I haven't heard anything from my last employer or the BON. So I don't know if im doing to much wishful thinking, but im going ahead and finding another nursing job. I can stay broke. I don't know how 1quick they act in these matters, but I would have thought that I would have gotten something in the mail by now. Maybe not. My heart still races when I get called for an interview. I feel like I have this huge secret thats going to get out or im going to run into one of my former co-worker. Im just beside myself. Needless to say, ive learned my lesson and my judgment is a soo much better. Im not sure what gonna happen..i guess I wont feel comfortable until its quite some time in between this drug screen and the number of months/years that ill be working. Any feedback will be greatly appreciatied.

my problem is this I just returned to work after over a year I was only on the job for less then 60 days I do not have any savings to hire an attorney and I am a single mother so to work part time is not an option for me I just don't understand how this is going to work in my favor if I do any of this I get it I will come out a better person going to meetings and taking a look at my situation but in the meantime how do I continue with life those things don't pay the bills and I'm almost thinking that getting a job in another field even though I absolutely love nursing is a better option for me I wish I had somebody to help me but I don't so I am on my own and money for a lawyer and working part time while I do all this work on the side is just something that seems so unattainable to me. I have spoke to somebody that is a friend of a friend and Zayn though what it is like to go through this because she has gone through it and has just gotten off her 5 year program I want to say about a year ago so I know that it works and I know that it's doable but she also has a husband that makes very good money I just don't see how this is going to help me in keeping my nursing license if I can't obtain a lawyer or health insurance because I haven't been at this job for more than two months. I can't help but feel as though I'm making excuses for myself and I don't think that I am is there any way to continue to work in the medical field if you're not working with medications or is it 100% you do not have a license anymore. I started out as a secretary and then went into medical assisting and then went to nursing school so I have an extensive background I just don't know what to do and my head is spinning I can't relax and I can't stop wondering what is going to happen once my last paycheck arrives

So, now I'm more afraid than ever. Is it 100% reported as addiction when something like this happens? I feel as though i was targeted ave i know there's no doubt aboutit that i was dirty. But i. Was also off the clock. Im so upset. Im 42y.o. and if i goy through this 5year inteintensive course...ill be 46. Basically coming at the end of my career. Ive been told that since its a first offense there maybe some leniency. If that isnt the case, i dont have a lot of money to go through this. If i was to hand up my scrubs for another career what on my part would have to be done? Im so depressed that i just dont think i have it in me mentally or physically. Thank you for all your comments.

Hi, I've been in the medical field for over 23years. Been an LPN for 15years. I never had a negative mark on my licence. I just went back to work after being out puff work for over a year because i broke my ankle in three different places and dislocated it. I started this new job and just got off orientation less than a Week before this incident. I had a rough night after a three day stretch of work...oh,also i startedd working 11pm-7:00am for the firs. time ever, and it was a challenge to say the least. So i came into work after two days off and immediately was asked if i knew that i was supposed to file paperwork on 11-7 upstairs...( i was working on another floor this night) that enraged me because i was at work till 9:00 am on the morning that this particular nurse was questioning me about. So i went on to tell her ( as other nurses were around) that i did everything i could that night considering there was 40+ patients, one nurse..me, and two nursing aides. Needless to say, i was swamped. So apparently whilI was ranting and raving, i told her on my way home that Monday morning i got pulled over because i was so tired. The police were very nice and let me have someone come get me and leave my car there. Well apparently somebody went and told the administrator add the nurse educator what i said and everything went left...and i mean left. So on Thursday morning after my overnight shift i got called into the office. The administrator and nurse educator started to attack my nursing abilities, my ability to work 11pm to 7am and low and behold the morning i got pulled over was a concern to them. They both left the room and i will admit, i was scared ****. Why??? Because i went out with my girlfriends Tuesday night to celebrate my friends divorce, and my return to work after being home over a year and had a few drinks and did one tiny line of cocaine....i know, bad decision. Also since i returned to work my ankle had been swelling up and killing me. I'm not on any meds, but many girlfriend had a few Tylenol #3 and offered me one. So dancing and having a good time, i didn't wanna be a Debbie downer and i went on with my night. After doing what i did, i didn't think about it again...until that dreaded morning. So, they asked me to give them a urine and i did it....i should of said no and let them fire me. But inn my head i had something to prove, what, i don't know. So i left after my urine and Fled to my car to cry. I went about the rest of my day and impatiently waiting for the bad news. Finally my phone rang and she in the sweetest voice ever asked if i was working tonight and could i come in and sign my competency papers before 4:00pm. I agreed. So when i got in there, What she really wanted was my signature on the drug test i took earlier in the morning. Surprise Surprise. Anyways, again i could have opted out and of course i didn't. Needless to say they suspended me until the results come back. It's been a Week today and i called the lab yesterday. Drug screen came back positive for cocaine and morphine (codeine changes to morphine. ..great.) haven't heard from my work, But the day after i submitted my urine, i resigned and explained my side of the situation. So here's my question...what happeneds next? Is there a chance they won't contact BON?? I'm not an addict and I'm 42y.o. honestly to Do a 5year program...I'd end up with My licence back at the age of 47. What should i expect and what should my next step be? Thank you guys. Please no scolding..i think ive done a good job at that on my own.