mortalkombat

Graduated in December. Was surprise they hired me as this is my first job. I just don't think I would have the energy to clean up the patients and do nursing care at the same time.

Hello guys, I recently attain my BSN. I was able to land a job at a hospital. I guess I was fortunate to get a hospital job as my first job. It wasn't what I expected. I felt so overwhelm. The CNA took advantage of me. They spent some of their time in patient rooms just talking and browsing on the internet. When I ask them for help they tell me some excuse. There were some patients whom were above 400 lbs and were incontinent, on isolation, and can barely moved. I was forced to clean them up by myself which took about 30 minutes at least. I could feel as if my wrist was pulling away from my hand when I try to turn them myself. I was just so frustrated. I was so afraid of working as I feel as my license is in jeopardy. I know that some of those feelings could be attributed through nursing school where the instructors keep mentioning if you don't do something then the BON is after you. I even second guess myself to a point that I'm paranoid now. I had a family problem so I resign before my orientation finished. The hospital let me return. However, I don't know if they would be mad at me for leaving before orientation. One o the reason why I believe that they let me come back is because this hospital has a high turnover rate. I read stories on here that if you manage to make someone mad then it could get into trouble really fast. I read an example where the managers would look at the nurse files more closely for the past 3 or 4 months to see if they did everything right on the computer. I don't know if I want to go back and it will be the same. I feel a little unsafe sometimes as I took care of some patients that I don't feel comfortable taking care of. We only went over it briefly in nursing school such as chest tubes and such. I was on the med-surg floor by the way.