newgrad000

Thank you all for taking the time to reply, I appreciate your insight. I have a feeling I'd deeply regret it later if I didn't give working as an RN a chance. I genuinely hope that to find an area that I like and will be excited about. I find the ED or maybe corrections to be more interesting than inpatient floor nursing, so hopefully I will be able to get a job in one of those areas and love it.

I graduated in December with my BSN, and recently passed the NCLEX. I am sorry to say that after all of my hard work, I am not exactly excited or feeling passionate about nursing. During nursing school there were many occasions where I felt I simply didn't like the job and would hate every day of working as a bedside RN. I ignored these feelings so I could maintain the focus that was needed to get through my accelerated BSN program. I also worked as a nurse extern/glorified CNA at a teaching hospital during my program, and hated the job 90% of the time. I am now worried about committing to a new grad job that I am not excited about. I have another bachelors degree and worked in a technical outside sales position for a few years before going back for nursing. At this moment I feel I might prefer to work in that type of position more than working as an RN. My base salary in sales was equal to what I will be making as a new RN and the job is less stressful, smelly, mentally, physically and emotionally exhausting...the list goes on. I remember why I left that type of job, it always felt trivial and I wanted to get more meaning and personal satisfaction out of a job. To me nursing seemed like it would be a challenging and rewarding job, and it would satisfy what I was missing. I am writing to ask for advice. Could it be that the CNA job I genuinely disliked has clouded my idea of what it will be like to work as a RN? Maybe I am just very burnt out from the nursing school experience. I have felt this way for so long, hoping that something would change in me once I graduated and was working as an RN. I could probably get a medical device/pharmaceutical sales job pretty fast if I wanted to. Or I could take a new grad job, which I would put 100% into and fulfill my commitment(2 years). I am afraid of making a bad decision for the long term, and also for my own personal happiness. If I don't work in bedside nursing now, could I come back to it later? Thank you for any input.