scarednurse

Thanks for all of your replies, I truly needed some advice on how to deal with my feelings. I'm feeling pretty depressed about it all and pretty horrible to say the least. Gooselady I didn't ask for help for so many of the reasons you listed, I think mainly is was because I am so new to nursing and I felt like the nurses thought I should know more, and I began to feel like an idiot for asking questions and started to feel like I should know more than I do. I have also listened to some conversations between staff about students asking too many questions and other things and started to feel like maybe I was annoying the staff. I realize that I shouldn't care if I'm annoying that staff or asking too many questions and I have learned that the hard way and its weighing very heavy on my heart and my mind and I can not even begin to explain the guilt that I feel. I also feel that if I talk to anyone at work about how I'm feeling they will talk about me and I don't want to be the center of anyones joke

It was my own error... I should have asked for help when I wasn't sure what I was doing . I knew it too that's what's really bothering me because I didn't listen to myself at the time. I got help when I realized my mistake but it was almost too late. The patient did not die but she lost consciousness for what seemed like minutes but it wasn't. She could have died because of my own stupidity I feel awful! The patient is not upset with me, maybe she doesn't remember not too sure but I feel sick whenever I see her and I can't stop thinking about it

Have anyone ever made such a horrible mistake it almost killed someone? I did this week and can not stop thinking about it and feel like I should not even be a nurse! I'm a new nurse and feel like I'm too stupid to be a nurse .