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Look why should she/he tell me I don't deserve to have my job? It's not his/her judgement and it is a extremely mean thing to say. If he/she applied to dozens of rural areas like I did then he/she would have at least 1 job offer. I work hard and I do my best. I don't need to enjoy something to "deserve" it.

Sorry...I hear a lot of harsh criticism on here in a regular basis and I get very defensive on the Internet. I understand that she/he is having a hard time finding a job but if she applied to rural obscure places like I did she/he would be gainfully employed.

To be blunt, if you have been out of school for over 8 months and cannot find a job at all then it is your own doing. Believe me, there are a ton of jobs out there, regardless of what allnurses will tell you. They are all in the rural, weird places out in the boondocks. Go apply to the rural prisons, rural clinics, very rural hospitals, and rural departments of public health 500+ miles from home. Don't want those? Then don't complain, because they are hiring new grads with wide open arms, believe me. I earned my job fair and square and I earn any job I get fair and square. Just because I am unhappy doesn't mean I don't work hard and do my best at what I do.

I applied to several outpatient jobs. In my hometown I have heard nothing from anyone because I only have a few months of experience and I am from a competitive area. However a few rural places 500-600 miles from home have called me. I don't know how I feel about relocating for non acute care experience and how hard it will be to come home after a year or two.

Thank you! Aww :) My unit doesn't have a unit educator. I get enough sleep but I am very tired because I still have things to do in the day like meetings, etc. for work. I think I got more than enough education. Ironically, my coworkers tell me I am doing very well and one even said I am excelling. I should be proud/grateful but I am not which may mean this is not for me. Everyone gossips a lot about each other and people have come to me asking me questions saying "so and so said XYZ about you" and it's like one true thing and several random untrue things. And if I ask certain people questions they make comments like "you should know this by now" or yell at me. I don't take it personally but it irritates me. I have some more experienced nurses who I talk to but they all say things like "this place is awful" and "if you can go back to school now, do it" LOL

Hi. I am a new grad RN. I don't know if I should be a nurse. 1. I really really REALLY despise night shifts. I hate staying up all night. I hate being exhausted all the time and feeling sick all the time. I followed all the tips and tricks for doing nights and I still hate it to no end. 2. I hate the hospital. I hate how chaotic it is. I hate how sick everyone is and how I have to be responsible for them. I hate how gossipy and catty coworkers are to each other. I hate how management dumps work onto staff that makes our lives harder. 3. I don't have enough compassion. I want people to be safe and comfortable but I am not a sentimental person who enjoys being exhausted just to be a hero. And rude/ abusive patients irritate me. I am trying my best to help you, just be decent to me and that's that. I don't care if you say please/thank you but at least don't yell at me for minor things. 4. I hate how competitive the job market is. I have no desire to live a bajillion miles from my friends and family in an area I am unfamiliar with and vulnerable in just to work nights and be underpaid and get yelled at by patients and have catty coworkers. I am 4'11 and very petite and living somewhere rural all alone scares me. I don't know if I should have become a nurse. I am tough but not that tough. I was a very sentimental and idealistic person when I started school but now that I have graduated and started working...I don't think so anymore. I don't have the usual newgrad woes of "Oh I don't think I am good enough at the tasks!". I just think I hate nursing. I want nothing more than to work regular hours, be able to sleep at night, and to be able to live somewhere pleasant and safe with decent schools around me--ideally close to home. I don't have the patience to endure a few years of suffering before switching to a clinic job or going on for a higher degree. I have learned that there are people who somehow managed to find careers that make a difference in peoples' lives, make a decent living, and work regular hours without going through nursing or the medical field.