Hello Dear, how are you? I was reading your post and it brought tears to my eyes. I just wanted to let you know that you"re never a failure in the eyes of God. You are not alone. I feel your pain. I too have the same problem. I'm trying to pass this test since 2012, but I'm not giving up. We will make it. We have to have faith, believe that we can overcome, try and never stop trying and we will prevail. Good luck. Sincerely .