I am one of the "lucky ones" to get a job right after passing my boards. I was so excited to get a job on a medical-surgical Tele floor. I have been on orientation for 2 months now and I absolutely hate it. The amount of responsibility and pressure is killing me. I've never had anxiety but I find myself thinking about work 24/7, waking up in the middle of the night thinking about things I missed or forgot to do. I am miserable and it's starting to affect my personal life. I feel like if I were to quit before even being off orientation it would look bad on a resume and lose a valuable reference. I just don't know if it's the floor enviornment. I was an aide for 2 years at a different hospital and never felt uncomfortable like this, or in nursing school. Nursing is all I've ever wanted to do and now I feel like it's ruining my life. I need some support and advice to keep moving forward.