jackieui

The title pretty much sums it all up. I had a horrible clinical experience during 2nd year in nursing, the nurse was not supportive and kept picking on me. When I didn't pass my lecture class, I had to drop out and wait for the next semester to redo 2nd year. I was really happy and looking forward to start fresh. It started out great and all that I could have wanted. Two weeks into clinical, my instructor told me I was not passionate and apathetic towards nursing and I should reconsider my choices. I had a total breakdown from that, I kept questioning myself if I should really stay. I have considered transferring to a different program, computer science. But I don't know if I should stay or leave when I'm already have way there. Also the anxiety from those two clinical experiences have really scarred me from returning back into clinical practice. I'm trying really hard to stay and finish this semester than change my program, but I don't think I am mentally able to put myself up to it anymore. It's like my worse nightmare. I don't know what to do anymore. I've talked to my lecture instructor and the clinical course coordinator and a counselor about this matter, they all support me for whichever path I choose but I don't know what I want anymore. I love nursing, but I feel that I can't stay. Should I leave and do a different program or stay???