I am a licensed registered nurse in the state of NJ for more than twenty years. Earlier this year I was terminated from my previous place of employment due to failure to follow procedure. Upon my termination my previous employer reported my error to the State Board of Nursing who required I enter their Recovery and Monitoring Program (RAMP) since the error I made involved data entry of medications. It was a clerical error but standard procedure, since it could technically be labeled suspicion of diversion, is to have me join RAMP, which I did. I was told my license would be taken if I didn't. I was told it was a 90 day monitoring program in which I have to go to weekly meetings, submit journal entries, and have my hair, urine or blood tested at any time at my expense. I do take prescription medication and I provided letters from my doctors, both neurologist and psychiatrist, stating I am disabled and need the medication to function normally and that I pose no risk as a nurse under their care taking these medications. I have reached the last days of the 90 day eval period in this program, I have been compliant. Except for one or two people in admin for RAMP they have been at best rude, I will be kind and not say what the worst has been like. They just contacted me and are requiring that I remain in the program and disregard my doctor's prescribed treatment, work to stop taking the medication my doctor has prescribed even tho my doctor who has been treating me for over five years made it clear it was to treat a disability, or they will pull me from work. They have also required I pay a ridiculous amount of money to be evaluated by their doctor. It seems that having to indefinitely be forced to undergo constant random testing of my hair, blood, and urine at my expense is at least an invasion of privacy and threatening to take my license unless I disregard my doctor's orders is a breach of the ADA. Has anyone else experienced anything like this? Is this not a violation of the ADA? My attorney did indicate that if I pose no risk and can complete my tasks being removed from work could be argued as a violation of the ADA but then I would have to leave RAMP and take my chances with the board. It's a difficult situation. Being in RAMP has been a miserable experience, I was doing very well working with my physicians in dealing with my disabilities but this has been awful. I love being a nurse, I am good at it, my patients appreciate the care I give them. This is sucking all the joy out of it. Anyone have advice or experience dealing with this kind of situation? Please respond only if you have factual knowledge, I appreciate opinion but I need hard facts at this point and it is difficult to come by.