Confused9999

Dear Random_Nurse12, Thanks for your reply. I appreciate your time and comments. My reply to you would be almost identical to the reply to 'llg' (?), so please feel free to read it. ;-) Maybe I'm in the wrong profession. I have no clue if this is so, or how to figure that out.

Thanks for your reply, llg (?). Between 2004 and 2013, I changed careers to art therapist and completed 12 of the 15 units of art required for the program when the school lost its accreditation (2006 - 2009). I also provided hospice care to a private client, (2006-2007), was inducted into STTI in 2011, and served on the Educational Outreach and Research Taskforce of the Phi Lambda Chapter of STTI from 2011 to 2013. From November 2012 to May 2013, I held a position as an In Home Support Services Instructor (IHSS) for IHSS caregivers. During this time I was the lead author as the four instructors (including me) developed and taught the new 16-week curriculum as mandated by the company's grand from the Center for Medicare and Medicaid. All of this, except for the IHSS Instructor position, was volunteer work to keep current with nursing trends and gain a lot of different experience. I've tried to find any patient care position during this time as well, and don't have the required 'three years of current practice'. For many reasons, I am unable to return to the bedside care environment, and that is why I focused on nursing education. Maybe my question is how to account for this time period while keeping to a one-page resume?

I'm a new MSN-Ed prepared Nurse Educator looking for an online adjunct nursing faculty position. So far, I've had no luck, and feel very discouraged. I've been unemployed since May 2013, and I think it's negatively impacting my chances for employment. I left my first hospital job after nursing school because of the constant bullying and harassment from management and colleagues after two years in 2004. I've been trying to find other ways to use my nursing knowledge since then, and the Great Recession of 2008 threw a monkey wrench into my efforts. I keep reading about how important it is for RNs to be life-long learners, and how many different ways a RN can use his/her education. That's why I went to graduate school, and why I've been planning to begin a Doctor of Nursing Practice online program in October 2014. The thing is, I've begun to wonder if nursing is a good fit for me. It seems as if I've been barking up the same tree since I graduated with a BSN in 2002, and nothing has worked out. I'm confused, demoralized, frustrated, and feel totally lost. My questions to you all are: 1) Has/does anyone else out there had/have these feelings about nursing not being right for you? 2) Were you able to confirm this sense of 'not belonging' to yourself about nursing? 3) What did you do about it? I feel just awful, like a failure and a useless person. Can anyone relate to my experience? Thanks, Confused9999