I started in the PICU in March this year, although it hasn't been that much time, I'm feeling as though it's not for me. I keep telling myself to just stick it out for a year at least but honestly I don't know if I can even do that. I recently cut back on my hours (40hr to 36hr) to see if that would decrease the stress I'm having, and have yet to work that schedule yet as it starts this week. I just found out I am working Christmas & Thanksgiving this year, which is a bummer.
At this point I envy any job that has a regular 9-5, day shift only, and relatively predictable day. I've considered OR nursing (although I don't believe this is predictable) because I like the SPACE of the OR, the sterility, the structure, I've always thought that was such a unique place to be. But at this point, I'm not sure if I even want to be in a hospital. I'm not feeling the 12(14 with commute etc)hr days.
A few weeks ago I applied for a school nurse position. They required experience but I applied anyways. )This was while I awake at night bored being on night shift). School nursing really seems almost ideal to me at this point: schedule, holidays, less pay, but less life-and-death choices I'll make on a daily basis. I think i'd be happier.
On one side, I want to be professional and really put 100% into the PICU to see what comes of it. I told myself to stick it out for 2 years.. then 1 year... and now who knows. On the other side, I want to be happier and less stressed. I realize other new nurses may feel stressed during this period but I struggle to see if this is regular new nurse stress or something more. Any words of wisdom will be appreciated.