Emmastone

Hi all. So I am a new grad and luckily got offered a spot in an ICU. I was so excited to start this new journey that I've worked so hard for. I am two months in and I don't know how to feel. I feel so incompetent and stupid. I feel like a fraud carrying this RN title. I know I am competent enough to carry on the tasks of an RN. However, I feel so stupid talking in rounds and to doctors. I feel like they don't respect me because I don't know much. It is hard enough to have to learn the medical profession, but to also know how to speak the nursing language has been difficult. Everything is so new, and I am just trying to float above the water. Did anyone feel this way? If so, what helped? What can I do to get better at this? I am a notes person and have consolidated all of my notes and bring it with me everyday to work to help me. I don't feel this is the problem. I just want to feel more competent. I take work home with me and look up conditions and procedures that MD's perform that day. Am I not smart enough for this? How do you know if this is right or if you can do this? What will help to increase my nursing knowledge? Help me please.