Noreene

I feel better I am not alone. 21 years of feeling stuck. I need to leave. For my sanity and for my family. My kids now know not to go to nursing.

Its been a long time coming. I am 43 been a nurse for 22 years. Ltc 4 years. Hemo for 15 years. I transfered from one center to another seeking for a happy medium center. Nothing changes. Even took antidepressants to cope. Only giving me more side effects than help. Made me numb. So let's try Peritoneal Dialysis. Better hours right. On call not bad. But management with "It is what it is." attitude. In other words, complain make changes but nothing I can do for you. Pts are awesome when you just listen to them. But when B***** and D***** is not getting the census up because there are no one who wants to try. Or just no pts sick right now which is awesome. All the nurses fault. Then your only nurse partner first thing in the morning cursing loudly to herself of how frustrating it is. And GOSSIP! This happens 2-3 times a week. I close the door. Then one day after trying to get an adequacy for the pt I have been trying to do for 2 months. He brought me out to his truck and stated,"I guess there is pee and drain specimen on the street somewhere. Its not here it flew out. Hahahaha!" Done and done and done. Well, let's try home health. See how this goes. But i really want to leave nursing. I am good at it, but I am just tired. Just tired. I haven't been working for 1 month. I still don't feel like wearing scrubs. I am even considering retail. Vent.....