nella14

I'm a second year and this is when I actually get into nursing...and do clinical at hospitals. I finished my first clinical practice and now, I JUST DON'T KNOW. I have no motivation to study or pay attention in my classes. This is the first time I gave up on studying. I always got A's when grades mattered. This is when it matters but I lack any motivation whatsoever. So, I'm wondering if this has something to do with my doubts about becomign a nurse. I chose nursing, because it holds meaning and value that I want in a job. I don't want to write up reports on some figures or design bags... it has no meaning to me. But, I don't know if nursing is fit for me. Because, I'm not sure if I can handle...changing a patient's position every hour, having to check every action I do.. This is my third time that I am seriosuly re-considering my major. But, I always end up not changing. Because, besides nursing, I don't know what other major I want. I have no majors I want to do. And I'm afraid that if I were to give up nursing, I would regret it and end up being a 30 year old studying with 20 year old undergraduate students. How did you know that nursing was for you internally? not external influences(money, family, friends, convenience etc) (sorry for my weird awkward writing...its 3 am and my first final is in like 7 hours.