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Let me start this article by saying "I'm going to be charge nurse soon with zero confidence and limited social skills." I'm currently working in med-surg floor for the past 2+ years. Recently, I told my manager that I want to transfer nights since I cannot keep up with day shift anymore (crazy orders, MDs/Surgeons, management always in my ass all day, family members nagging.. if you know what I mean). Anyways, she agreed but here is the catch "I will be a charge nurse." Her words were "I need to cross train you as a charge nurse." Last yr, she asked me the exact same thing but I refused since it will be days but since I'm transferring to nights I said YES this time. The only reason why I agreed to it because I need the experience to level up, step out of my comfort zone and "Be out there" attitude. The problem is I have a hard time connecting to my co-workers, poor leadership skills and I'm a bit anti-social. Even though I work there for more than 2 years, I haven't really build a friendly relationship with my co-workers. Its not that I don't like or interact with them but I have hard time connecting to their conversations so I talk less and kinda aloof. Every time I start off conversation, I have few response from my co-workers and I begin to think "maybe I'm boring or did I say it right?" Also, I'm one of the younger nurses in the floor plus with my small frame, many people even patient or family members think that I don't know what going on. If there's something come up on their lives, they don't talk to me about it but they share it to other co-workers. If they go out after work, I'm always the last person to know or don't have an invite at all. I see them having a good time together in Facebook but never bothered to ask me to join with them. During my recent performance review, my manager see me as shy nurse and I don't like it. Because of all these, I have doubts to be an effective charge nurse and its always in the back of my mind "what if I failed. What if they don't take me seriously. What if I don't know enough." I began to question why did I agree in the first place. I'm getting depressed, worried and scared. I'm losing my mind thinking all of these. I even planned to change job or transfer to another hospital if this will be not work out but at the same time, I don't want them to see me as a loser. What makes it worst is I brought these all up to my sister (who also a nurse) and she said "Its just you. You are weird. Just talk". How can I talk if I don't even know how to talk. The more I think about it, the worst I feel. Co-workers are different from classmates. When I was in college, its easy because I don't see my classmates every day or talk to them every minute but work life is a whole different level. If I want to survive on this job for the next 10 years, I should form relationship more than as a co-worker. This is not what I imagine when I was hired. I thought I will be someone better when I start working but its gotten worse. I begin to judge my self worth. My charge nurse orientation will be this Thursday from 0700 - 1500 and I'm sweating so bad. What should I do guys? Leaving is not an option for now. I don't want to be a disappointment to my manager and especially to myself. Please give me advice and encouragement.

I am RN working in a local hospital taking care of one pt that will be doing CT with contrast. When I drew Creatinine level per protocol, lab tech called me about the GFR being high and needs 1L NS infusion pre and post procedure. Thats when my predicament started. I called MD for an order for NS infusion. I ordered what needs to be ordered but I failed to clarify if it will be given as bolus or plain infusion and the rate. I was stupid to think that it should be bolus because of the time and urgency of the case. I ordered 1L NS Bolus at 250 ml/hr. The pt has hx of CAD, HTN and the admitting dx is post ADB anuerysm repair. The pt was able to have CT done. Other MD called me prior the procedure that he ordered Lasix bid because of the fluid I gave. (This happened few hours before shift change.) During my report to the oncoming nurse, she made a lot of comments about the order - NS bolus pre and post infusion.She question why I did not have post NS infusion when the lab tech recommend it. I realized what I did after that and I am troubled since then. I don't want to lose my job since I am fairly new to the hospital. I badly want experience. This are my realizations on that day: 1. Clarify orders including pre/post infusion, bolus or plain, rate and recommendation. 2. Better understanding of the pt's situation and hx. 3. Give detailed report to the oncoming nurse. 4. Be calm. Please give me more advices about this. I need help.

Good day everyone, first off I will start this whole story of having my first job in home health agency. I am on my 5th month and next month, I will be qualified for supervisory visit. At first I was a PRN admiting nurse so I looked for a job that can support me financially. After a month of searching, I was hired in a rehab center as Charge Nurse. I was very happy of the outcome but I was starting feeling off in my home health job which offered me a full time position few weeks after. So at that time, I have 2 jobs - a full time Home Health Nurse and PRN Charge Nurse. Because I was feeling off with my HH job, I am hunting down jobs again and this time, I made sure it will be a hospital job. Although I am enjoying going to new places but I am tired of travelling, signing countless OASIS, plus there is a recent issue which gave me a huge set back. In my home health job, there is a misunderstanding between our scheduler, director of skilled nursing and administrator which lead to a huge fight. Our scheduler and director resign immediately after that leaving me empty handed because they are my closest friends at work. I am honestly freaking out and I do not know what to do with my job. Thankfully, the weekend before that happen, I was offered a hospital job (which I gladly accept). So right now, I have 3 jobs. I wanted to resign in my HH job but I do not want them to think I am a jerk and leaving them in most darkest days so what I did is that I return to my PRN position and continue doing visit. The problem is now: I will be bombarded with 3 jobs. HH takes a lot of time filling up OASIS and stuff. What do you think? I still have 2 weeks before I start my first hosp job and I do not want to be overwhelm. Please help me. I dont know what to do.

I have a volunteer experience in a hospital but its still pretty early. I started volunteering last December and I like working there to. I love the place, A LOT BETTER THAN Home Health. Thank you! You gave me an idea how to work on my resume. I am a newbie at this. I just pass my boards and this is my first job EVER!

Do you mean that it is okay to place my current prn job in work history in every application? and place my boss as a contact person?

I just recently pass my boards and just got the HH job. How many months before I could place my current position in my resume. I am really confuse right now because I want another income to support myself and being a PRN nurse will starve me and my goals.

Thank you for your wonderful comments. I need to clarify something. Home Health is the job that I dont really like but learned to love it every single day. I decided that I will not place reference from my current job because it is new and they dont really know me well. But how about placing it in work history? All applications needs some reference from work. Or I will just say no because its a new job? Is it acceptable?

Hi Guys!! Lets not make this a very long topic. I will make it short. very short. Anyways, I have a PRN Home Health Nursing job which I dont really like but I am having fun at the moment. Going to places I've never been before is scary at first but its challenging and I LOVE IT. But I have another problem. I want to have another nursing job to save some money to support my family. I am dying to include my Home Health nursing job experience but I am confuse how will I do it coz I am fairly new to the agency - I am in my one month of hire. Do i need to place it in my resume and ask my director for reference? If I will have an interview, what will I say to them or to the interviewer? Please I am so confuse. I am now collecting applications from facilities around my area. Plus, I dont want to wait coz someone might got the position that I am aiming for. Any ideas?

I just recently passed my NCLEX last June and since then, I applied anywhere. I have 5 interviews in total but none of them called back. I was interviewed with Maryview more than a week ago and they said that the interview is the greatest so far. I am positive in that interview but no one called. I am really depressed now. I tried to apply with no luck. I am in down side now. tsk Guys, do you have similar problem with me? I need moral support. I am in dead end.

Hi guys! I am currently looking for a job for more than 2 months. I could not land a single interview and I was thinking to apply for the same company who fired me last August. I worked there for a month and got fired for self reported med error and other internal issues as well. I was thinking about this since I am so desperate to land a nursing job and that same company is always hiring and it is so tempting to apply and I finally I GAVE IN. I will apply for the same company but different location. How can I fill out my application? Will I place my last job in past employment section? They are also asking if I ever work for any of their facility. What should I place there? I am so confused right now and I am desperate to land a job. Do you have the same experience too? Please can you share it with me. Thank you.

I will try to visit the Carrington Facility in Chesapeake this Monday and see what I can get afterwards. I doubt Home Health will hire new grad. I think they require at least 1 year experience in HH or hospice. I am freaking out fellow nurses. I m so down right now that I can do everything just to get a job offer.

I worked in Bayside Health and Rehab Center.. so I cannot get in any MFA Facilities anymore but they said to me that once I have experience, I can apply and work there. I tried Bon Secours but no good. I always denied in Bon Secours and also in Chesapeake Regional

I was fired because of med error. I gave the medicine at the wrong time. The patient is stable without adverse reactions. It is self reported error and first offense.

Hi guys! It is now my second month being jobless after I was fired by my first job. It is depressing because I have been in several interviews already and they did not call me back. I envy my cousins who graduated NCP and I am pretty sure she will have a job soon cause she is a PRODUCT of a local hospital here in Virginia while me struggling to get in to any hospital or LTC. Recently, my dad was fired also so we are so poor, hopeless and depressed. NOBODY IS HELPING US!! Like me, my dad had several interviews and did not receive any calls afterwards. I am desperate guys and crying every night. I pity my dad and I cry every time I see him sad and regretful. Guys, help me. If anyone here is in Virginia Beach, Virginia please give me ideas what should I do. I cannot think anymore. I TRIED EVERYTHING. I REALLY TIRED. I went to HR Department already and talked anyone without luck. Do you have similar experience with me? Tell me your story.

I am trying to apply for clinical preceptorship in all hospitals here. I dont know if I can get in but its worth to try, isnt it?