First of all let me say that I am so sorry for what you are going thru. I have also lost a son though under different circumstances so I can understand your pain. Try http://www.stillbirthalliance.org for more information about possible causes. Also please get involved in some support group or program it will help to talk to people who have gone thru the same thing first hand. As for managing, you have to allow yourself time to grieve and you have to understand that while the pain will never go away completely, it will get easier to deal with. I am praying for you. Janeen