janepaled

Let me preface this by saying I am not an alcoholic. I know loads of people say this, but I don't often drink. I do, however, have severe PTSD. I told my psychologist in confidence that ever since my psychiatrist switched my medications around I have been more anxious, especially at work where I have to be around people. I also told her that I have drank before work a couple times in the past to decrease my anxiety, but that I am no longer doing this, and will not in the future since I have an upcoming psychiatrist appointment and I am hoping to have my medications changed back to what they were a few months ago. The psychologist told me that if I agreed to substance screening she would not have to report what I said to the ethics counsel. I agreed to go to be evaluated and set an appointment. Well - prior to substance counseling...but a few days after meeting with that psychologist (who also works for the hospital I work at) she goes and tells her supervisor and the chief of nursing at my hospital about me having drank prior to working. She then calls me and tells me that the chief of nursing said that I either "self-report" to the BoN or that they might have to put me on medical leave. What should I do? I am no longer drinking prior to working. And even when I did, it was very few times, and I was NOT to the point of intoxication. Nor has there been any incidents at work regarding patient safety. I feel completely betrayed by this psychologist and feel like I can't ever tell her anything in the future. I am also very scared my position/license is at risk for something that is not even going on anymore - i.e. it's not a problem anymore! I don't feel comfortable self-reporting because I do not feel like I have a problem with drinking, my problem is with PTSD and I thought I was doing everything I could on that issue. I even agreed to therapy/class 2x a week for PTSD and have been attending.