I can relate to what you are experiencing too. I have been on L&D for 15 months. I am a new nurse too and I had a preceptor who was hard on me too. There was definitely a mismatch in personalities for me too. I just took one day at a time. A lot of people say it is normal for new nurses to cry a lot in the beginning. I think this is unacceptable. However, I always told myself that this hard preceptor also has something to teach me, I just need to listen and learn. Once I was off orientation, I discussed my hardship with other nurses on the floor and they all said I should have gone to leadership and asked that my preceptor be changed. I don't know if this is an option for you or not. Also, we just started this mentor program. Because I am one of the newer people on my floor, they asked if I would mentor some new hires during their orientation process. Its a time when they can ask questions about experiences and situations that come across during orientation. Maybe if you can't change preceptors maybe you can ask your leaders if there is someone who would be able to mentor you. In other words, good luck and keep going. We all have our hardships and its important to just stick with it. Once your off orientation, you'll make your own groove and you'll prosper!