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You bring up a good point. I didn't think to ask about turnover or how he views collaboration. Will do that next time!

Once again, thanks for the overwhelming support and the vignettes. Its nice to know what its like for other people. I'm over the panic again and called my on and told her I'm going to apply for a transfer. she said I'm so sorry to hear it but I'd do the same thing. I talked to my dad..so embarrassed about failing in my first job, and he said don't worry, but you can't live with a target on your back. Sound advice. Its scary to hit the pavement again, but I'm going to have to see it as a welcome opportunity! So, no more panic, just business. I'll let you know what happens!

I just want to add, as if it isn't obvious, that I am just in a panic now. I don't want to go into the clinic this week knowing that Friday my doc and the om will hit me with this PIP that SOMEHOW others knew about before I did. I'm back to thinking, am I really that awful to have occasioned this subversive treatment? What should I say at the meeting? That my nurse happened to overhear the receptionist and docs nurse talking about it? How unprofessional! Should I preemptively request a transfer before the meeting occurs? Finally, I am terrified now to work with a new doc. If I transfer, how can I be sure my record will be OK? I can't. Oy.

Blue devil, thanks. I learned through the grapevine I'm going to be given a PIP this coming week, which means 1st step to getting fired. He's had 3 different NPs in the past, each staying around 2 years. Why do companies put up with docs who can't keep an NP? its rural clinic so he has to have one. He's even had a doc there for 2-3 years. He's like this to anyone who tries to work there besides Hus own nurse, who acknowledges he hates NPs. Is there some remedy for this? If I get fired, would there be any way to report his behavior? I hate to think this way, but it is just not right!

TheOldGuy..thank you!! I'm so glad I found this site. I've been afraid to even discuss this with NPs in my local group, thinking everyone would just assume I must be doing poorly or I wouldn't encounter so much criticism. I need a place where I can feel more comfortable and can sometimes learn things without feeling like I should already know it all. I really appreciate all of this support!

I'm a she. Anyway, I feel some type of residency would be preferable. I was always in the top of my class, but there are situations we just couldn't cover. For example, I recently found a urachal remnant on a guy. A what!? Was my first thought. I was looking for kidney stones. So, should I not have ordered the test because I didn't know what that finding meant? Well, that was my answer from the good doc. So I called a urologist who kindly filled me in. Good thing, because this guy had a malignant tumor. Its not that I won't do my research or make my calls. I just thought a collaborator was someone to guide you with those oddities.

I'm looking at Vanderbilt and Saint Louis U. Both have DNP and post masters in psych and you can apply to combine.

Thank you slyfoxrn! I have been internalizing his every criticism and I've even had to see a psychiatrist over it! I feel I've allowed him to make me feel so low and so inept. I appreciate you taking the time to answer me, as I no longer trust my own thoughts. I'm putting in for a transfer!

I'm new here..this is my first post. I really don't know where else to turn, so I found all nurses and thought I'd give it a try. I have been working as an FNP in a rural clinic. From day one I was on my own. If I ask a question, he will say, "If you don't know you shouldn't have ordered the test" or "give me a medical reason you're concerned about this" in a condescending way. He has laughed at me for things I've said or questions I've asked, and trust me, I don't ask him things often. Is this even remotely usual? I'm terrified to look for another job, thinking ALL collaborators will be like this! He is the only physician in the office and I'm the only NP, but he will tell me "all the physicians I've talked to agree you give steroids too frequently". I'm pretty conservative on steroid use, so I'm just left wondering what is going on? Any advice?