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Thanks for the replies and helping me put things in perspective everyone! I was obviously having a really bad day but am feeling much more confident now. At the end of the day I am there to better myself and the lives of my family. I am very serious about school and plan to stay that way. Besides, I have enough support at home and here on allnurses :)

I really need advice or at least encouragement. I am feeling really sad and down. I am about four weeks into my first semester of nursing courses and I feel so excluded from my classmates. In fact I am pretty sure a few of them straight out dislike me and I don't know why! I have been friendly to everyone and really tried hard to be likeable the first couple of weeks but I guess I just don't fit in with anyone. There are a few nice people that will chat with me when no one else is around but that's pretty much it. I sort of feel like one of those pack animals on the discovery planet that were kicked out of their group and left to die. I just want to make it through school and graduate to help my family but it makes my day so hard feeling like an outcast and a loner. I don't get it because I have never had this problem before. People have always tended to like me. I am happily married and busy with my kids but I do have some pretty serious and depressing issues going with a terminally ill mother, so maybe I am putting off a bad vibe. I DO NOT talk about my life to my classmates though and try to stay friendly and cordial. I made the mistake of adding some classmates to my Facebook because they had formed a group there. After I figured out that some people from class were going through my profile all the way back to 2010, I decided to set it to private except for my family and old friends. This apparently offended some people and one even sent me a message asking me why she couldn't see my profile! Which means that she had to purposely search my name to figure that out. I finally deactivated my entire account just so I wouldn't possibly offend someone else. There has already been drama that has affected the whole class stemming from that Facebook group and I do not want to be a part of any of it. I feel like I am in survival mode at the moment. I have come home and cried the last two days and I even at ate lunch alone and cried today. It is pathetic! I feel like I am in jr high again and don't know how I will survive the next two years like this. Please tell me I am not alone 3