eereiche19

I recently graduated in May with my RN and was completely psyched to finally work in the field I love. I had been working as a CNA for the 2 years prior to graduation at a long term care facility and had a wonderful time with all of my residents. I told the facility that I was graduating and they said they would move me up to an RN position. A week after graduation I started as a GN, since I had not yet taken my boards. I was given 3 days of orientation, and on the fourth day I came in they told me I was on my own cart and that we were short... Everyone that I had talked to said that this was normal, and that's just how it is there. So I tried to suck it up and put my education into action. There were many nights where there were only 2 of us with 22 pts each on the subacute unit. It continued in this fashion for about two months as I struggled to keep up with trying to learn what I could, which was a little difficult because in all of my clinicals at the hospitals everything was computerized, and this facility still used paper. I spent half my night chasing other nurses around asking them what I should do about certain things. Since I had a change of title, I was on a probation period. After two months of this, I received a phone call at 9am ( I had just gotten home at 8, I worked 6p to 7a) asking me to come in. When I got there I sat down with the nursing supervisor and assistant nursing director and was told that I had made 3 errors throughout my time working as a nurse. I had failed to hand write a PT/INR result in a lab book, but did chart it in my note; I had administered the correct medication to a pt. but wrote it on the wrong MAR; and I didn't see an order for iron 325 which didn't get put into the MAR. I was told that these were "Lazy Mistakes". I admitted that yes these were all mistakes, but no one had come to talk to me about things that I was doing incorrectly. I had never received any warnings or write ups... Ultimately I was shocked, and left feeling completely incompetent in my skills, and as a nurse in general. This is a career that I love and want to be in for the rest of my life, and I had just been terminated? I was scheduled to take my boards five days after this meeting, and canceled them because now I'm terrified that I am going to fail. This was a couple of weeks ago now, and I have already started back in school for my BSN with an 18 credit course load, and now questioning my future as a nurse. What I want to know is, is this how most facilities are? I feel horrible, and I am terrified that if I have to list this termination ( first time I've EVER been fired) it will effect my chances of getting a good job in the future. Do I have to list this? And if I don't, wouldn't look like I was lying?