NPinCA

I now have almost 30 years of nursing practice but I still remember what its like to be a newbie: having anxious dreams that you forgot something; worrying that what you don't know will hurt your patient. You ARE NOT experiencing anything new. If anything, you are experiencing the right feelings for the stage that you're at. It may also be that you are used to being in control and the hardest part about being a new grad is not having any experience and therefore not being in control. I would encourage you to hang in there. Don't go to a clinic or MD office. If you have a negative day, use it as an experience that teaches you what NOT to do. Use the good days as positive reinforcement for you. Anticipate that the first 6 months to a year as a new grad will be the worst. Know that it will get better. And even if it never gets better and you leave in 1-2 years? then the experience will look good on your resume and you will be even more valuable. Hang in there!