I have been in the NICU for a little over 1 year and I am thinking about a career change. I love the NICU and it can be so rewarding, but the things we see... IVH, IDMs with their blood sugar in the dirt for 12 hours, all kinds of NEC with 3 perforations in my 1 year, an infant born with leukemia, PIE, preemies who thrive in the nicu just to be readmitted to the PICU with shaken baby syndrome, sweet NAS babies who go home with parents who can't even wake up to feed them when they are screaming their heads off... it is becoming too much for me. When I take care of an unstable baby, my levels of anxiety are much higher than the helpful level. I regularly have dreams that all my babies are dying at the same time and I can't help them all. Has anyone else dealt with this without having to move to another area of nursing?