Give yourself some time to adjust. This experience you are going through is what you called transition phase and reality shock. Patience is a virtue so they say. The confidence will come with acquired hands on skills and encountered with more challenging cases. Everybody start somewhere and make many mistakes in the beginning. YOU ARE NOT ALONE in this journey. If you talk to seasoned nurses and ask their stories when they were new. You will find out you are not alone in this world of doubts and uncertainties. Even the best of the best have blooper stories to tell. If you have the passion for patient care and if you have the common sense to prioritize patient safety then embrace Nursing world with optimism. Let go of the past and stop comparing the old career to your new life. You are re-born! I am taking MSN in Nursing Education online and learning all the available technologies for students to utilize in their teaching strategies, and oh boy I feel your pain and struggles. Sometimes I hit my self in the head for this, why can't I be content to be a staff RN. No I have to fulfill the prophecy and dedication to life long learning. I responded to the calling of nursing educator shortage. If the hospital are hurting with staff shortages so is the academic institutions. The unrealistic demands of producing competent nurses with limited resources, higher expectations from board of education and accrediting boards, avoiding lawsuits and licensures, etc., are driving everyone insane. However, I have to stick to the ideals and stay focus so that I can hear the calling loud and clear. If it's meant to be then it is meant to happen..... By the way I am new to this allnurses.com community. This is part of my orientation to blogging, again moving out of my comfort zone feels uneasy but I take it one day at a time. Good luck to you and continue this support system in pouring your hearts out by blogging. It is therapeutic. When that time of AH-HA moments come, you will say to yourself- Now I get it!