armym6

I am a brand new Army LPN and I just got to my first duty location to work on the floor. When I first got here, I was so proud that I felt as if I was going to bust. After only 2 months I would do anything to change my career. I have never felt so stupid in my entire life. I was an Army Combat Medic before I recieved my license and felt that I was pretty good at my job. Now I just feel like thier has never been a more dumb humand being on the face of the planet. Everyday I am told how I have missed "simple things" and all the other nurses talk about me behind my back. And then one or two nurses will come and tell me becuase "they are my friends and want me to know what people are saying". I re-enlisted for 6 years just to go to the LPN course because I wanted to stay in the Army and do more to help people and now I feel like I am trapped. Everyday I put my uniform on and feel a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach all because I know there are countless things I am going to miss. Instead of helping me become a better nurse are doing everything in their power to rip me apart. I don't want to give up, but I don't know how much longer I can go on feeling inadequate and stupid. Any ideas on how to fix this? Am I really that bad or is the first year just taking its toll?