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  1. I wasn't the highest achiever in nursing school. I went in to it with straight A's, but I'm a mother of 3 and couldn't stand the thought of not devoting at least some of my time to my family throughout school. I worked part time, went to school (BSN) full time, spent as much time as I could with my little family, and studied when I could shove it in. A little background - Nursing is a second career for me. I use to HATE my job and was devastated every morning when my alarm went off. In 2009, when the economy fell, my husband lost his job and it fell to me to keep up on all the bills - which only made the situation less joyful (if that was possible.) During that time we fell behind on all our bills - I hated money and the crappy situation we were in. So in 2010 when my husband started working again I decided I wasn't going to continue to be miserable and I would do something meaningful with my life - so I started on the road to nursing school. During nursing school I wasn't the smartest student in class, but I had an intuition when working with patients and received praise during / after most of my clinicals. After graduation I felt invincible - I made it through nursing school and finally, in my 30's got my BSN. After graduation I applied and was accepted to a Versant program. Only one last hurdle - the NCLEX! I opted to take the Kaplan review and studied that for 2 months before taking the NCLEX. My Kaplan scores ranged from the high 40's in the beginning, to the mid 60's toward the end of the program (my readiness score was 66.) So, In early September, I felt as though I was ready (according to Kaplan anyway) and set off to take THE test. Now, I am NOT an anxiety plagued test taker - in general. However, the moment I sat down to take the NCLEX my anxiety went through the roof! 6 years of school, 6 years of not giving my all to my family, 6 years of working part time (and living pay check to pay check), landing my dream job / after graduation situation, all came down to this one test. By the time I hit 75 questions I felt like I could melt in to the floor. I got up, went to the bathroom, dried my arm pits as much as I could, cried a little, gave myself a pep talk, and went back in to the test. The anxiety never went away. I sat there sweating, heart racing, vision going blurry for the WHOLE 265 questions!! I walked out of the test in a haze having no idea what had just happened to me. I felt euphoric (that word always seemed nice to me - euphoria - but crap.... this sucked.) Later that evening I tried that PVT and did not get the "good pop up". A week went by in absolute agony. When my letter came my husband called me, asked for my permission to open it, and broke the bad news to me "We're sorry to inform you..." I *was* devastated. When I called the hospital to let them know my results - they said "Thank you very much, please apply again during the next cycle." I lost my dream job. Over the past couple of weeks I've given the situation a lot of thought (It's consumed me, really) trying to figure out what happened, where did I fall short, and WHY ME?! Today I am still a little embarrassed that I did not pass. All my friends are starting their new jobs and I feel left behind - that's the hardest part. My kids are still young enough that they really don't have any idea what's going on or how hurt I've been - which I am very very grateful for. I feel like I have I let them down (which, to see them, really isn't the case.) However, know this: I am not ashamed, and if you find yourself in my shoes, you shouldn't be either. I believe we all have a purpose in this life - it's up to us to figure out what it is. Maybe my not passing this time will lead me down the path for which I am meant - the path where I can do the most good. The same is true for you. Do your best. Pick up the pieces that all fell apart and get back at it. You are on this path for a reason - follow through with it! I know in my heart that I will be a great nurse some day and so will you. I don't know you, but I feel your pain - I wish I could take it all away and show you your happy ending. You are going to be OK! Truthfully - this bump in the road is only a few months delay. You're going to get another chance at this god awful test and you're gonna punch it in the face! Figure out where things went wrong. You graduated school, so you've got the "stuff" - you just need to figure out how to show it. Many fantastic nurses did not pass the NCLEX on the first try. Lets be those fantastic nurses together!! Buckle down and I'll see you when we both have RN after our names.
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    Desert Regional RN Residency?

    It's approximately 1 year of didactic/ floor training depending on the unit and they ask that you sign a 2 year contract for a total of 3 years.
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    Taping pillows together

    I am in my final quarter of my bsn and saw something today that I wanted to get your opinion on. A pt was admitted and was thrashing around after transfer to a bed. He was extremely confused and scared, and the nurses were not able to comfort him or calm him down. After applying restraints for safety, one nurse brought in 15 pillows (I counted - twice) and proceeded to tape them to the bed and to eachother. In some places the tape was sticky side up because it was done so quickly. In the end the pt was chest deep in taped together pillows (not an exaggeration) and still thrashing around. I was an observer to the spectacle and don't have any info about the pt, or his reason for admission. What's your opinion of the nurses actions with the pillows? What would you have done?
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    Landing a Day job as a New Grad

    Oh my gosh - that's terrible!!
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    Landing a Day job as a New Grad

    I graduate in June and am trying my best to get in the mind set of working 12 hour shifts more than once per week. I am very much a morning person - I much prefer to get up early and go to bed early than to be up all night. My question is: Is it unlikely - as a new grad - to start on day shift? I know that night's may get a differential in this area (CA - Inland Empire), and "nights are easier", but neither of those are compelling enough for me to want to work nights. That being said - I'm happy to "do my time" as a new grad -- days are just better for me. Any advice?
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    Hate my job

    As a Student Nurse I am essentially a Unit Clerk and ER Tech rolled in to one, except that I can not do splints. My job duties include transporting patients, entering orders (labs and exams) in to the computer, doing ECG's and running nurse errands. I have had little opportunity to witness anything exciting and the person training me seems to be more interested in their social life than making sure I'm doing anything right. I do have a tough skin, but I'd really like it if I enjoyed my place of employment. Many of the nurses at this facility advise me not to stay but rather "look for something better" once I graduate. I really want to leave but am afraid I'll regret it.
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    Hate my job

    I got a job in the ER as a Student Nurse and was told how lucky I am because it's a trauma center and they're picky on who they hire. However, now that I've been there for a few months I find myself dreading going in. Everyone nit picks and criticizes me and what I'm doing without coming to me (I hear through the grape vine) On top of it I am being bullied by a tech who does things like takes my chair (the only chair at the nurses station where I have to be to do my job) and uses it to sit there and socialize. When I ask for it back he tells me I don't need it. I'm told to work faster. I'm told to slow down. I constantly hear people talking poorly about one another and are a completely different person to their face. I'm so torn about keeping this position. I really don't feel like I fit in and don't love being there, but hate to drop what I'm told is such a great opportunity. What should I do?
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    VA Valor program / residency

    Hello All - looking for some specific information about the VALOR program at the Loma Linda VA in California. Do any of you know how many spots they open up? Or if maybe the group they accept is going to be larger this go around due to the opening of the new facility in the next year? Aside from that any tips or general information you can offer is MUCH appreciated!!
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    Apparently I'm not a super creater of FB pages -- I don't see how to make it available to add friends, just "likes" which really isn't what I intended.
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    Ok, I fixed that
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    I'm not sure how many of you are still reading this thread, but I created a Facebook page for our cohort. I wasn't able to find it in a google search, but if you look for "CSUSB Nursing Class of 2016" while in FB it comes up. The photo is a stethoscope making a heart shape. It is set up as a public page, but if you all think it would be better to switch it over to a private group we can do that too. Looking forward to meeting you all on Tuesday!
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    Thanks nj892!! You're encouragement helped ease my mind - Thanks for being so positive!
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    @Jesses*girl: Have you tried calling the office or going down there? They may be able to give you some information. Yesterday was the deadline for people to respond, I would imagine that today would be a more likely day to get a call. Also, the points I calculated for myself was 39, but when I inquired they told me they had me calculated at 40pts. Maybe ask them what they have calculated for you... I wish you luck. I know how stressful it is to not know!
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    They called at about 3:30 this afternoon and asked me if I was still interested in attending the program. Then they asked if I could come in today and do the paperwork (sign the letter and fill out an emergency contact card). When I got there I had to have a copy of my DL and SS Card. That was about it.
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    I got in!!! See you all Tuesday!! I'm excited to meet you all.
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    CSUSB Fall 2013 Applicants

    Life as an alternate is stressful. Still no phone call from the school, so it's starting to look like I wont find out until next week when the deadline passes and the spots open up from people not responding. I feel pretty good about my chances of getting in as an alternate, but would be a lot more calm if I had an answer for sure. Incase you're curious I had 40 pts: a 3.6 pre-req gpa and a 88.7% on the Teas. I was told that they call alternates based on their points, then pre-req gpa - in that order. I noticed that no-one has set up a facebook page yet. When I get my phone call and if one still hasn't been set up I'll be happy to do so.
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