EducatedNurse07

I have little confidence as an RN, I have a BSN. I passed my courses with great grades. And in my first 2years at bedside I was off and running, I felt like I was "getting" it. I loved the career I had chosen. Then during my third year and until now 5.5 years later, it seems as though my memory is failing me. I am 38. I have to constantly look up things I didnt have to before. I have become so cautious and careful that I skip meals during my shifts. I get tongue-tied when i give report. When I get home I constantly replay all the events in my head to make sure I was safe and gave the best possible care to my patients. I dont want to go to work anymore. I want abandon the career i worked so hard for. I have never caused harm to a patient, or even nearly caused harm to a patient. But i know of nurses who have made terrible mistakes. And in the new state I moved to a year ago, they publish the names of nurses in the nursing newsletter who have ongoing disciplinary action against them. I recognize my anxiety but has anyone else ever experienced this?