I am a former ER nurses for the busiest ER on the east coast. I left 3 years ago because it was " getting to me" I went back for my BSN and currently my MSN and now work in Management and love it. A few weeks ago, my team and I were in a BLS class, when I experienced a flash back while conducting CPR on the dummy. I became panicky, but, calmed myself down. The flashback was of the last patient I conducted Chest compressions on prior to leaving. He came in Doa. These flashbacks haven't left me since that night a few weeks ago, including others we have worked on that were young and died before their time. It's like a flip of a light switch, one minute I'm fine the next minute it's the past replaying these images in my head. I contacted a psychologist waiting to hear back... I'm curious has anyone else experienced this? I do not do patient care anymore. I'm wondering why now? Thank you.