JesRN331

I've been working on the floor (med-surg/tele) for three months, and I'm even still with a preceptor. I absolutely hate my job. I remember being so excited about being a nurse, and eating up all the great stories my instructors told us. I now think they all need to be committed for being pathological liars. All I do all day is deal with pills and poop. My unit is perpetually understaffed, and the patient acuity is too high for our staffing ratios. I also never wanted med-surg. I want ICU or OR. My heart is not in this job, and I arrive/leave unhappy every day. I can't imagine having to stay for one to two years without having to be medicated...and I have thought about going to the doc to try to get anti-anxiety meds to keep me afloat at work. My anxiety isn't because I don't know what to do...it's because I can't do it all alone. I worked as a nursing asst before this, so I know how to do the dirty work and time management...but this is just too much. I thought I was alone, and opened up to another nurse. She told me she wants to cry most days as well, and most of the others do too. I feel like our patients are in more danger just being there. How soon is too soon to try to leave? I would like to stay in the same hospital, but transfer to another unit. I've heard of my classmates transferring within a few months, but it seems like a very hard opportunity to find...I don't think anyone will take me if it seems like I can't handle med-surg...