hopperbunny

It is 2 year program and graduation is a long time away so that's why I am so stressed out too.

I was originally in the patients room that they share with another patient when a staff nurse told me to leave so they could do wound care on this other patient. They said to bring my patient to the social area and then come back. I did not get a chance to check my patient's temperature, so I asked my instructor, while in the social area if I could do it (it was not a rectal) and that's when I was disciplined again. I should know not to do it in public, he said. I was basically disciplined for listening to the staff. I know that I should just get over it, but I kinda feel like I am in high school when it comes to the gossip about what happened and how I almost failed. Gossip is a big thing in the class I am in and whatever happens to anyone, it is like wildfire. Gossip usually does not bother me, but this time I feel like everyone thinks I am an idiot. I should not care, but this time I do.

Yesterday was my first day of clinicals and it just went downhill from there. Got disciplined because my instructor thought I was rude to another student, got disciplined for putting my patient out in the social area and then almost failed because he thought I gave a medicated ointment to the patient, but I just was holding it for the staff nurse who asked me to help him (we are not allowed to do any medications yet) And then got called out during our 'student' wrap up for those things. And then was the subject of gossip for the rest of my group. I actually cried on the bus home. I feel like if this was my first day then I am really screwed for the rest of my schooling. I am not sure I want to continue because I feel like the idiot now. I felt really singled out because he tends to joke, gossip and laugh with the other students and I get the opposite. I feel like I have to walk on eggshells compared to the other students now and that scares me because I do not want to fail at something I infested all this time in. Has anyone felt like this? First day out of the box and bam, mistakes galore? I am so confused? Any advice for not failing.