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    nursing confessional

    I really appreciate all the feedback. I'm pretty sure I have Shift Work Disorder and should probably go get a differential dx in case a Dr's note would make any difference to my manager. I've been doing some of the things the article mentions. I've been looking for jobs but a year of experience is the standard around here. I'm also thinking of applying to Dr' s offices just to get back on a 9-5 schedule. I've committed to B complex vitamins and acupuncture, so hopefully I'll start feeling a little better physically. I was unprepared for this, it doesn't touch the exhaustion of an accelerated nursing program. It is good to know that, as one of my coworkers says, "you're not crazy, your'e just a night nurse."
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    nursing confessional

    I must start by saying I' m so grateful. I have a job in a notoriously rough city to be hired in. It' s at a very cushy private hospital. I make an amazing salary, my coworkers are awesome, I have good tuition reimbursement if I go for my NP, and the management seems to like me- relatively low pressure, pretty good support, etc. There are things I don't like about the way the hospital is run and the work is so boring I'm afraid I'm losing my nursing skills, but all that seems idealist and frankly kind of petty crap right now because... I work night shift!!! I. Hate. It. I'll spare you the details of the politics behind how and why I got this shift. The important thing is that I'm on it with no hope of getting off until I hit my year in July and put in for a possible transfer. In the meantime, I hate the person I've become. I'm desperate with exhaustion. I spend so much time sleeping I have no life anymore. I don't have the energy to exercise. I eat poorly and am seemingly always on a low blood sugar rage. when I'm awake I am mean to my fiance and short tempered with my stepdaughter. I am depressed and swing between fits of sobbing and rage. I just came out of a spell where I felt suicidal. I know this is all from lack of sleep/vampiric lifestyle. I'm so brain- fogged at work I made two med errors this week. Every time I pass a med I'm in terror. If this job were less cushy I' d already be looking for a new one. But the market is HELL since the storm wiped out three of our biggest facilities. I' m lucky to even have work right now. should I see my manager and ask what can be done or do I just bide my time until I can (hopefully) find another job here where I live? And in the meantime, how do I take care of myself and my family???
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