BabyRN23

how much should a new grad RN get paid per hour?

which is mentally draining?

I've been applying for a job and everyone wants someone with 1-2 yrs experience at least? How and what should I put on my resume to make it look desirable and can get hired although I'm a new grad with no experience?

Now I'm more scared of what u just said. Where do I go when nobody replied to my resume because they want someone with a year or 2+ experience. I needed to start somewhere somehow to put my foot on the door.

take the job now...

i studied lvn in 2010 and str8 to RN and graduated in sept. this year. When I got my license as an LVN it took me 6 months to find a job, until I got 1 and they trained me for 3 days and put me on the unit with 47 patients. I was the only nurse and I had 4 CNA's. This was in a nursing home. At first I was excited during training, but after they put me on the floor alone.. no one else but 4 CNA's.. I started suffering anxiety and panic attacks. I had 3 trips to the ER and diagnosed with panic disorder. I was prescribed with Valium, but i never bought any. Since then I would have panic attacks ( feeling like a heart attack), even when i was at school.. I even talked to my instructor in RN school that I would quit... but because of my faith in God I pursued my RN which I was 1 quarter away from graduating, and until after 5 months of working I stopped. I concentrated on my studies, but the anxiety, depression and fear, panic.. every possible worse case feeling I felt during that time. I was also living alone since I was an out of state student. I took my NCLEX-RN in november this year and passed. Now m back here in Washington, and everytym I think of working as a nurse i feel this chemical rushing thru my veins going up my brain and start to panic. I feel like m dying that moment and want to die. I submitted my resume to some jobs, and one called me the following day. It's a home health job and wants me to start soon. I am scared. I am scared when I would be alone with the patient. I fear giving meds... I don't know. I am scared to work as a nurse. ANY advice and hope pls? Thanks! God Bless!