CrystRN33

Hello all! I am new to this site and I am just looking for some advice. I graduated in August and got a job in the MICU/CICU. I started in the beginning of November and it was the most intimidating thing I have ever done. On my first day I had my own patients (vent patients) and I felt like I was going to cry! My preceptor was no help, in fact to my face she would say I was doing great then I would be called into the educators office at the end of the shift and she would tell me I needed to much prompting. After two weeks of that they decided I needed to go to PCU for a few weeks to get better training. I was upset but I have been on the HF/PHU for two weeks now and I feel great however after my last experience with ICU I am terrified to go back! Thankfully I will have a new preceptor but I am still scared I won't be prepared. Does anyone have any advice about how to handle ICU? I am struggling with remembering my cardiac meds (I know general stuff about them but when they quiz me I need to know every action of the heart it affects). I am looking for tips about how to remember them and break them down. Also, I get a little intimidated when giving report (especially to the charge nurse) I know all about my patient but I never know what they are looking for. Do I tell them everything about the patient or just what has happened during my shift and the last shift? Thank you for any help!!