I'm also a new grad and I can totally relate! I started working in September after graduating last May. In many ways orientation is harder than being on your own because, like you said, you have to kind of conform to how someone else does something instead of finding out what works best for you. The best things I have heard as a new grad is that it is okay to still learn...as new grads we aren't somehow expected to have the knowledge that a nurse of 25 years has...we are expected to be safe and to continue to learn. The best thing I have done for myself is to do my best every day, not worry about what other people are saying about me, pray before every shift and continue asking questions even if I feel dumb...and you'll learn who to ask--there are nurses out there who love to teach....THEN people started asking me questions too and that is a great feeling when I can acutally help other nurses!