Jasmine2691

I know this is thread is years old but..... Did it ever get better? Right now I am in that position: feeling incompetent, frustrated, want to cry every shift, older nurses look down upon me, feel like poop, type of new nurse.

Hello!!! Let me begin to tell you a little bit of myself. I recently graduated from the nursing program (RN-BSN), passed my boards, and was hired for a level III NICU position. The director on the floor starts off all of the new graduates in the acute nursery for 3 weeks before starting the level III babies. Well let me be the first to say I am struggling, and struggling badly. I feel extremely slow in all my assessments, and feel as if I don't know anything. It's so hard starting off in a new hospital, as a new nurse, not knowing the charting system, policies and procedures, etc. I can tell my preceptor does not have a lot of patience and I definitely feel a lot more pressure, feelings judged, and looked down upon. I am so frustrated and I am so scared that I won't even be competent to advance to the level III NICU if I could barely manage the nursery. I want to cry every time I get in my car I'm questioning if nursing is even for me at this point. The reason I wanted to work in the NICU is because I love love the pediatric population particularly neonates. I'm questioning if I chose the right profession. Has anyone ever had these feelings? Or have been struggling to adjust more than others? Sorry for the rant, I don't mean to complain, but I need other fellow nursing opinions. None of my family is in healthcare so they are not sure as to what advice to give me.