Sorry to hear about your struggles, but I can honestly say I have walked in your shoes. I was married to an abuser for 7 years, and thankfully got out of that situation. I have some suggestions. FIrstly, scholarships are wonderful. There are thousands out there. I personally had my rent paid for 4 years by WISP, WOmen's Independence Scholarship Program, founded by DOris Buffett, sister of the multi gozillionaire Warren. There is a long applicaation process, but is well worth it. Find yourself an advocate, likely through a women's group for abused women. That person can help you out with trying to eplain your situation. Also talk to a school counselor, let them know your past, and they might help you as well. WOrk very hard in your schooling. My program only took 36 students,a nd 198 applied. Work very hard, do your best. My ex used to call me stupid f^&*ing B &^$h. Every A I got proved him wrong. Sucess not only proved how smart I was, but also how wrong he was. I just graduated in June with a RN. I am thrilled, and if I can do it, so can you. I pray God will bless your endeavors, and your family. Joy