NERD_RN

Hello everyone. I am a new nurse working on a very busy medical-surgical telemetry unit and I have been on my own for about 4 months now. This has been a difficult transition for me and I have certainly experienced the "reality shock" of being a new nurse. I can generally talk myself down from the overwhelming anxiety that accompanies going into work for another shift. I tend to be hard on myself and can be a little self deprecating without realizing it. My problem within the past week is related to delegation. Last week while waiting for my assignment a nursing assistant began saying rude comments that I'm 99% sure were directed towards me. One of these included, "Some people are book-smart, but ain't got no common sense" (and yes, I know "ain't" is not a word). There were other comments made, as well as an instance where I walked upon a couple of nursing assistants whispering, "Shhh, here she comes". I have been trying to find a balance with the nursing assistants, being friendly, but also delegating tasks. I think the issues may be stemming from a combination of laziness on their part and a lack of confidence or maybe over-delegation on my part. I often thank my assistants and let them know how much their knowledge and experience help me as a new nurse. Am I asking too much of them? How much is too much? I know this shouldn't matter and that I'm not there to make friends, but I am really having a hard time getting past this. I go back to work in a few days and I'm not looking forward to it because I can't stop thinking about this situation. I don't really know who to trust at work or who to talk about this with, so I decided to vent here. Part of me is struggling with the thought that an experienced group of nursing assistants think that I have "no common sense". I've found myself wondering if they are right... and wondering what they have been whispering about. Ugh.