LPNmomtobe

Thank you...I am feeling better about it and thinking I might take a brake from PDN and do more long term care for a while. And I know that will be stressful in itself

Thank you everyone for your thoughts on this, I am feeling much better about it and realized that I was going to have to leave at some point, but just hard when they can't talk to you about when they can clearly talk to you the whole shift about other stuff..and than to have it be something so simple like taking him out of bed at a certain time...but oh well. Thank you vent mommy for your response, and u know as a mother myself of a medical complex child, I agree 100% with I should not have even gone in that day, but anytime I I interview with a family I ask them what they preferr as far as when to not come in. I know for my son, any type of GI bug could set him back. Mom made it very clear that unless u are on your death bed, she wants the nurses there. She knew I had a small head cold starting my shift, I was filling in for a nurse the following day and asked her if she wanted me to call any of the other nurses to see if they could fill in, cause I was super nervous I was going to give him something, but she said no, and told me she really needed me there tomorrow regardless cause she had a meeting to go to. I felt awful and clearly should have and wanted to call in, but she kinda of warned me she would not be happy if I did. She has had nurses come in with stomach bugs and fevers and care for her child. So trust me I would not have gone in that time, but I was afraid she might let me go if I did call in. I do appericate everyones take on this.

Thank you, it's still hard not to blame yourself, I would rather the family say because I am going to have a baby soon, they need to fill my shift, if that is what it really was...and if it really was that I didn't take him out bed, i wish parents would have talked to me. I talked all the time with the mom, why not just tell me. Again thank you for your input on this.

I am very upset right now, shaking my head and trying to figure out if this is real reason ...I work as an pedi home care LPN. Been with this family for almost a year, work one day a week for them. Had a great realtionship with parents and other nurses, and of course the child. I am not in anyway saying I am excellent nurse, but I pride myself in knowing when I am taking care of a child, I do it 100% and never cut corners. The child is 12 and very disabled, can not walk, or talk, has alot of resp issues, seizures and can change very quickly. There has been quite a few times where I actually thought the child was not going to make it much longer, that is how sick she would get, and than it would set him back for a couple of weeks. Well in Feb I let the family know that I was expecting at the end of Oct, but planned on working right up until the baby was born. They seemed ok about it. I never called in, even had gone in a couple times when I felt awful, like a head cold, cause I knew they depended on the nursing ( they had 24 hour nursing) Every morning I would go in, report was she was up most of the night, struggling with certain issues, most resp, and by the time my shift started, she was in the deepest sleep she could be in, and mom saw how I could not get her awake, but I would still sit her up in bed and try to get her awake, however she would sleep my whole shift if I let her, but I would ususally get her up in bed, sitting up, doing CPT, singing to her and of course doing all the bed bath, mouth care and so forth. Always got her dressed, repositioned every hour, sometimes more, let's just say very attentive to her. Mom did mention she wanted me to learn the their lift, and said I could either do it now with the nurse that came on after me, or after I had the baby, mom said it was up to me, I said that was fine, not an issue at all. That was two weeks ago, and last week the nurse who she wanted me to do the training with was out, and yesterday, totally slipped my mind as the child had some pretty major resp issues during my shift, so I was focused on making sure my report was very detailed and I did not leave anything out. Mean while, mom never said anything to me about this when I was there and even there finishing paperwork a half hour after my shift ended, I would have totally appericated it she came to me and gentle reminded me if I can go over the lift with so and so right now since your still here, and I totally would have. Instead I get a call from my nurse superivsor saying the family has asked for me to not come back, when I asked why, she said cause mom feels you leave the child in bed alot. I was shocked, even she was shocked, cause she said mom told her she talked to me about it and I still made no effort...I told her excatley when and what was talked about with me she knew about the other nurse being out....I feel horriable cause mom is there my whole shift sitting on her computer in the kitchen and it would have been great if she came in walked me through there lift ( child is attached to TPN and is 100lbs) and how they want the pumps to be placed and so forth. She has done training with me before, I am all for learning and learning to do more. My case manager said the family had nothing but great things to say about me as a nurse and my nursing skills, but felt I was no longer a good fit.. Again still super shocked. My husband feels it is because I am 7 months pregnant, and they know I am going to be leaving at some point and the family knows that they can't tell me not to come back anymore cause I am pregnant, and as of now, have no restrictions, but I don't know...I just feel really defeated right now and feel horriable. I have only been a nurse for a year and I am very much by the book, but this is the first time something like this has happened to me. I guess I could see if I called in alot, or I did not take care of my patients, such as forgetting meds, or treatments, or not picking up on serious issues starting...but something as simple as getting her out of bed and more so when she usually stays in bed until my shift ends, that is how it had always been and not until two shifts ago I was talked to about the lift. Anyone experience this in PDN and how do you end up feeling better instead of feeling like a crappy nurse.. ?

I am very upset right now, shaking my head and trying to figure what the real reason is...just need to talk to other PDN that may have been in this situation or something simialr. I work as an pedi home care LPN. Been with this family for almost a year, work one day a week for them for 6 hours. Had a great realtionship with parents and other nurses, and of course the child. I am not in anyway saying I am excellent nurse, but I pride myself in knowing when I am taking care of a child, I do it 100% and never cut corners. The child is 12 and very disabled, can not walk, or talk, has alot of resp issues, seizures and can change very quickly. There has been quite a few times where I actually thought he was not going to make it much longer, that is how sick he would get, and than it would set him back for a couple of weeks. Well in Feb I let the family know that I was expecting at the end of Oct, but planned on working right up until the baby was born. They seemed ok about it. I never called in, even had gone in a couple times when I felt awful, like a head cold, cause I knew they depended on the nursing ( they had 24 hour nursing) Every morning I would go in, report was he was up most of the night, struggling with certain issues, most resp, and by the time my shift started, he was in the deepest sleep he could be in, and mom saw how I could not get him awake, but I would still sit him up in bed and try to get him awake, however he would sleep my whole shift if I let him, but I would ususally get him up in bed, sitting up, doing CPT, singing to him and of course doing all the bed bath, mouth care and so forth. Always got him dressed, repositioned every hour, sometimes more, let's just say very attentive to him. Mom did mention she wanted me to learn the their lift, and I could either do it now with the nurse that came on after me, or after I had the baby, I said that was fine, not an issue at all. That was two weeks ago, and last week the nurse who does the training was out, and yesterday, totally slipped my mind as the child had some pretty major resp issues during my shift, so I was focused on making sure my report was very detailed and I did not leave anything out. Mean while, mom never said anything to me about this when I was there and even there finishing paperwork a half hour after my shift ended, I would have totally appericated it she came to me and gentle reminded me if I can go over the lift with so and so right now since your still here, and I totally would have. Instead I get a call from my nurse superivsor saying the family has asked for me to not come back, when I asked why, she said cause mom feels you leave the child in bed alot. I was shocked, even she was shocked, cause she said mom told her she talked to me about it and I still made no effort...I told her excatley when and what talked to me about it and than she knew about the other nurse being out....I feel horriable cause mom is there my whole shift sitting on her computer in the kitchen and it would have been great if she came in walked me through there lift ( child is attached to TPN and is 100lbs) and how they want the pumps to be placed and so forth. I am all for learning and learning to do more. My case manager said the family had nothing but great things to say about me as a nurse and my nursing skills, but felt I was no longer a good fit.. Again still super shocked. My husband feels it is because I am 7 months pregnant, and they know I am going to be leaving at some poitn, but I don't know...I just feel really defeated right now and feel horriable. I have only been a nurse for a year and I am very much by the book, but this is the first time something like this has happened to me. I guess I could see if I called in alot, or I did not take care of my patients, such as forgetting meds, or treatments, or not picking up on serious issues starting...but something as simple as getting him out of bed and more so when he usually stays in bed until my shift ends, that is how it had always been and not until two shifts ago I was talked to about the lift. Anyone experience this in PDN and how do you end up feeling better instead of feeling like a crappy nurse.. ?