When it rain it pours. I know how hard things can be when family is sick. I was in nursing school from august 2010 to May 2012 in CA and during my time in nursing school my mom developed breast cancer stage 3, my dad went into liver and kidney failure for 2 months and was in the ICU and to top it all off my grandpa died the weekend before finals 3rd semester and I never repeated a Semester. (Also I am married and have to young kids) My mom and dad are alive and healthy now amazingly! I passed the NCLEX in July and worked for a local hospital for three month training the surgeons on the new Electronic Medical records system. The hospital and all the doctors LOVED me. I even had surgeon's talking to managers trying to get me hired there. Needless to say the hospital over spent on launching there EMR and was not able to hire me and now just recently laid off 75 people at that hospital. I have spent months turning in Hundred of application, talking to everyone I know (I know a lot of people in the medical field here) and bugging the poop out of managers still now we are in March and still no job. So finally came to the realization that there is not jobs here for anyone. I even have an RN friend who I have know my whole life who has been a ED nurse at a childrens hospital here for a few years and tried to get hired in L & D at a different hospital (and she had a friend who was an RN in that department) and she couldn't even get a job. I have also heard that since there is talks of healthcare reform with Obamacare places are not really hiring and are waiting to see what happens there. The only people I know in Ca who have gotten jobs here are people who already worked somewhere and then got hired there once they were done with school. (Which was even a long process for them, and not all of them got hired.) The truth here in Ca is that the nursing schools are putting out way too many new grads and there is just not enough jobs. I have spoken with several different HR's and they have about 10 position a year here for new grads and get about 500 applications per job posting. I have done my research. The best place I have found for job listing is INDEED.com. They have all the listing from all websites and hospitals. The states that I have found so far that are still hiring new grads are VA, SC, AL, SD, WY and TX. I think in today's economy we will probably relocate and have to move to some small rural town to find a job. This is what I have decide to do. As a fellow new grad this is my best advice. Look in other states where the market is not as saturated with new grads. If you want to end up in CA get your experience and then maybe try travel nursing to CA or wait until the market turns around. As far as other co-worker go they eat there young out here in Ca too. The best way I have found to combat that is to kill them with kindness, Genuinely people can tell when you are faking it. I know it is a very old saying but it works! I have done this my whole life and still have not found a single person it doesn't work on. I know that it is one of the hardest things to do when you know someone doesn't like you but you HAVE to do this! We do not know everything as new grad's (even though sometimes we may think we do) and the worse thing to do is act like we do. Our best allies are the older nurse's who have been around the block a few times. As a new nurse I am not sure what you did was right or wrong with the drip but the thing I would have done is ask someone. Always double check, ask if you are not 110% sure even if you risks looking like an idiot and everyone hates you. It is better for us to double check than make a fatal error. Also if you have ANY free time while you are working DO NOt sit at the nurse's station talking. Look around and see you can help from the Jaintor to the doctors, even if they are not your patients. This will earn you many friends fast. Hospitals are very big small places where everyone ends up with some sort of reputation and you need to make yours a good one. There is a lot of behind the scenes politics at hospitals which I am still learning about as a new grad also. The more people that like you and have your back the more help you will have and the more valuable you will be to that company. People help people they like and we have to take responsibility for our own actions. Try not look at what everyone else is doing wrong and look at yourself. Self evaluation is one of the hardest things to do (I know I struggle with it) we can not change other people only ourselves and how we react to others. (I think Dr. Phil said this at some point) Same with patients, they do not sue people they like. I have never left a job on bad terms. All you have to do is Help your co-workers, this makes a huge statement and shows everyone you work with that you are nice and a team player and it will be noticed. The more people that you help the more people will be willing to help you. When you are new to any place you have to fit in to have a good working life. The more friends you make and people you help the easier your life will be and the more you will fit it. You know how to help people we are nurse's and that is what we do. Just remember the toughest people/healthcare workers, RN's are usually the ones who know the most and will end of being your best source of information. Most people do not help people for nothing, So be that person who will help anyone for nothing in return and it will pay off. I promise this has ALWAYS worked for me. Get back out there dust your self off, put the past behind you it can not be change, put on a smile and kill everyone around you with kindness and watch your life change! Hope this helps this is what I am having to do yet again... We can't walk around with chips on our shoulder we have to let go the past and Keep moving forward! (from Meet the Robinson's I love kid movies!) Learn from our past don't let it hold you down. I am still having to do this as well, I know it hard but we can get through this and we will be stronger because of it. Hope all this helps! :)